It's a seldom day
I woke up to thunder
And the sound of pouring rain

Careless whispers cause despair
Idle gossip everywhere
Tongue of venom
Do you not know !?
Hurtfull words cause pain and woe
Like a stone cast into a silent lake
Disturbing peace doth silence  make
Cleanse thy heart
Purify thy mind
Words then to follow
Speak of healing  kind
Mans last hour to him unknown
So think before you cast that stone

Sitting
In the dark
Feeling the beat
Of my foolish heart

I touch my face
Alien lines push away my fingertips
I don’t feel like me
I am a woman possessed

Eyes widen out to let in more light
Dark unseeing pools disguising my fright

If I can just stay here…

Still in the night
Protected by blindness
Sustained by no sight

Sitting
In the dark
Feeling the beat
Of my foolish heart

.

The Idea
That life is terrible
The Notion
Life can be better
The Reality
There will be pain
The Illusion
That no one cares
The Truth
There will be People who do care
The Search
May take forever
The Victory
Will Last Forever.

I walk along these halls,
Bright, blinding white all around
My breathing quickens and tremors
in a panic.
I feel trapped in all this sheer
blankness,
I scream and bang on the walls,
begging to be released
I slam my palms into the walls of this
cage until I'm exhausted
and on the floor.
The only thing that is still ramming
and breaking and struggling is my heart.
Searching for a way out still.
Foolish thing.
The heart has no thought to know it's
useless and no eyes to see the
futility.
Calm, I breathe. Give it up, I whisper
to my panicked heart.
Ushering it to be still.
Give in, it's okay. If you stop, this will all go away.
I promise.
Slowly, slowly the blood in my heart
stopped thrumming and I bled out into
the whiteness.
Staining red the blank, empty
whiteness these halls were.
-Oh well-I think through the fog
-My heart is stopping, there will be
peace again.-
With the last few soft thumps of my
heart I smile at the halls.
There will be no more horror or
blankness or pain in here.
It will be gone with me.
I smile.
It's a white smile. But it isn't evil or
strangling.
Gentle and soft. Warm.
The girl is happily dead.

Here's to those who long for perfection
for somebody to hold
for somebody to hold them
to have a shoulder to cry on
to share a laugh with
to never stop dreaming
to never grow up

Here's to those whose wishes were wasted
whose hearts were shattered
who feel empty and worthless
who pretend to be okay
who feel like a disappointment
who took a chance
who don't know who they are
who don't understand everything

Here's to those who sacrifice so much
who will do anything to make a smile on another's face
who put on a brave face so other's don't have to
who are completely lost in another world
who could not make it no matter how much they tried
who are dead inside but pretend to live
who are forgotten

Here's to those who just want to be happy.
who loves but not receive it in return
who feel like they don't belong
who wish to start over
who live with regrets
who held onto the past
who found happiness
who desires for happiness

I understand
I have been there before
But if there is something that one must know
It is that...

I love you with all my heart.