you flip your heart upside down as you begin to serenade me with the words "i'll come save you." Those days were the ones when your melody was supposed to become my reality, you let me drown in my sorrows until i could feel no more.

Im sorry for my boringness & lack of imagination over the years, my sense of dreaming has gone away when he made me realize there's nothing left to hope for. My sense of belonging has diminished into nothing. I guess i was never really worth it to stay. I wanted to just run away with you when times got hard, maybe you weren't running with me, you were running from me. I understand. I wish i could run from me too. My subconscious shadow is always watching me. I'm trapped in this dark world, alone. Waiting to be set free, days are getting longer, breathing is getting harder. My feel of vanishing is getting stronger. It's not that i want to die, but if i were today, i wouldn't mind.

Ocean waves fall upon the sand as if its reaching out to touch each grain. The waves are blue and silver. The skies are grey and cold. When tides are high, the waves seem to slap the sea, each stride a little longer. Its no longer autumn anymore, the fields have turned to frost, the trees collecting snowflakes. The ocean continues to run, not once will it ever leave us.

the streets are wet & shining with the lights of the cars.

it was quiet.
;thoughts were too loud.

The only noise that is barely audible is the light sound of drizzle.

The air has a bit of chill in it.
its dark.
but everything is still visible.

in the distance, you can only make out silhouettes;
shadows of people prowling through the streets.

you look up at the sky, viewing all the stars.
Watching the grey clouds glide over the moons light.

As the sun sets in the dawn of winter, birds fly home to their nests. The wind is blowing in beating variations, like taking a deep breath with its chest. The skies grow darker, the birds start to dissipate as they fly across to different states.