Please don’t fall in love with me
I’m not someone to trust with your heart
I don’t even trust me with mine

Please don’t find me attractive
There are storms raging beneath this surface
Evil things dancing in fire and brimstone

Please don’t desire me
I’ll only let you down just like I do everyone else
I’m not what you want or need

Just keep looking... okay?

I lose interest
I lack tenacity
I'm falling back
Into black and blue
Into "I'm not good enoughs"
and giving up without even trying

Summers gone,
  yellow no longer stains the sky
The smell of trees and hot heat
  will not fill my brain for eight more months
It's cold and I'm lonely.

All I feel is blue
  Yet I see you in yellow
Together we make green
   But my favorite colors purple
So I chase after reds
That are busy making orange
And I continue feeling blue
  Until I no longer see color

I always hoped
I'd haunt you.

The thought of me
would linger
in everything
you do.

My face
would never
leave your dreams.

You'd wake
in panic.

I'm not there
aymore.

You miss me.

I always hoped
I'd haunt you.
But you
ended up
haunting me.

My feelings for you have been swimming around inside of me for so long that it's making me seasick.
Running in circles like a carousel, driving me crazy.
They refuse to stop swimming, spinning,
burning like a wildfire.

Need I say more?
Tired
  Tired of being tired
Sick
with an illness, no one can see.

Miserable.

Need I say more?
I am
   the worst form of lonely.