no more food for me.
I would rather starve and feel bad about what i did to him
rather than live without him and not punish myself.

i am a girl that is gone.
i am a boy that is gone.
i am something in between that is gone.
gone, gone, gone.
altogether.. i am gone.

i have royally messed up
yet words disclosed in the following
Will never grant me a pass
Will never make him forgive
what i have done
i cannot make him forgive.
i cannot take back what ihave done.
scrub ***** and blood until the floor is scrubbed away too
but it will never be enough
when you feel bad for being hurt
yet you still blake yourself

dear you
i know.
you wont see this because youre cross and never want to talk again
but I know you
im sorry
why would I be so harsh
why would I hurt someone i loved so much
why
why
why
ehy did i blame you
its always everyone elses fault
but this time its my own
and i regret what I did.
its almost like
my heart was ripped out
and now i feel nothing but negative emotions
i am sad
I am angry
I am hurt
i am nothing.

i shouldnt exist

i know
i mess up
again
again
again
but please
i love you so much
you dont know
and i cant think of words
eloquent enough
to portray what I feel
to you.

possessed
and
wondering
when
i
will
gain control.

you
you are like ice
you are cold to me

you
you make me want to burn
it
all
down

you
you
y
o
u

...

you make
you make me
c
o
l
d
.