A green aura of envy
Apparent yet hidden simultaneously

Melodies flow and the music plays a delightful tune
Every stitch sewn by her maker was made with better wool than mine

Beyond the desired looks, their love is secure
Just one more thing to add to the list

In my arsenal you ask?
Broken poetry and unused words

Majority says nay
Minority says yay

Love around here has been suffocated
Plenty to share, none to myself

Loves taken a hiatus status
I’ve folded my hand.
Consistently dealt a 7/2

My cue to return to real life
Is when the water turns cold

Heres a little diddy
'bout my hopes and dreams
Take a little pity
on me please oh please
Tell me that I'll be fine
and you're the one
And that this is the last time
and I'll be done

She took another sip of her fine feathered drink
I don't think this is a learned behavior
The apple doesn't fall far from the tree
Blank stares following her body sways
Making mountains out of molehills
I take an attempt to persuade her to address the issue
Only leaves a temporary result to get us off her back
The weight on her back transfers to mine
All eyes on me to intervene again
Though my shell is hard, my inside is not

Do you think of me when you can’t sleep
All alone, or so I think

Do you hear a peep
Are you listening
Are your eyes closed tight  
Losing winks of sleep

Can you see the lights peeking in
Outside of your window it’s time again
I feel depression setting in
Oh no here we go again

The same routine
Everyday
Im losing me
Lost inside these ruins
There’s not much that I’m doin
Now you know why I pushed you away

I think about my future children
And how they will come about.
Will I adopt, have a surrogate, or have them myself
Who will be my mate?
My partner through it all
Oh how I wanted it to be you.
But now that fantasy is over
I hold it together for those sweet future babies.
Grab another whiskey drink and dream of tomorrow

I still lay on my side of the bed
I’ve tried to lay on yours
But I end up over here instead
Can’t believe I would get mad
All those nights I wanted you gone
Recalling those memories makes me sad
Lessons learned
Never make mistakes again
I’ve found the new leaf that I’ve turned
It’s 3AM and here I lay
Writing to myself
Wondering what you would say

Please, leave my mind
Please, leave me alone
Please, let me be
Trying to return to my life without you
So please, let me let you go