This was a road; an old map told me so.
A trail, Iโd say, and sometimes less than that.
Itโs hard to walk, and harder still to know.
It started as an even bed of chat.
A mile beyond the gate, it turned to clay,
And here the leaves have not been trampled flat.
I look between the trees to guess my way:
Among the oaks, a space one wagon wide.
Who drove here? Are their sons alive today?
And can I rightly say the old map lied?
The futureโs not what maps are made to show.
Lifeโs like this roadโit cannot be denied:
The wayโs less clear the further in you go.
Itโs hard to walk, and harder still to know.
An Old Roadbed
You were never meant
to carry the weight
of becoming flawless.
Still, you stood in front of the mirrors
counting every crack within yourself
as if broken things
could never be loved.
But look closely
The moon survives with scars,
old books survive with folded pages,
and hearts survive
even after being left unheard.
There is something deeply human
about unfinished people.
The way they hesitate while speaking,
the way their hands shake
before holding someone elseโs pain,
the way they smile
even after difficult days.
Perfection is cold.
It does not tremble,
does not heal,
does not understand.
But imperfect peopleโ
they learn softness
from every wound.
They become gentle
because life once wasnโt gentle with them.
And maybe that is enough.
Maybe being human
was never about shining without flaws,
but about continuing to love,
to try,
to stay kind
while carrying all those invisible storms inside.
So if you ever feel incomplete,
remember thisโ
some souls are beautiful
not because they are perfect,
but because they remained good
in a world
that gave them every reason not to.
Being Perfect in Imperfect
I'd give you the hair-tie around my wrist.
I'd make you laugh, and I'd cry for you when your back was turned.
I'd braid your hair, and tell you I love you.
I'd talk until you couldn't help but believe that was true.
I'd give you the world, the moon, and the stars.
I'd make you feel safe again.
I'd braid your worries into confidence.
I'd talk you off the tallest ledge.
I'd give you the hair-tie around my wrist,
Because in a world where I'd do anything,
That's all that I can do.
Hair-Tie
*
a field of yes
when Yes was still young
it lived nowhere
Nigde knew this
Nigde always knows first
someone sat beside it
writing music
that taught birds
how to arrive
before arriving
meanwhile
the Ministry of Gravity
continued filing complaints
against dancing
the flowers ignored them
naturally
by midsummer
the complaints
had rooted
somewhere
a woman laughed
at a broken umbrella
and the rain
having lost the argument
fell softer
a forgotten garden
continued its negotiations
with spring
the result was green
highly unofficial
entirely convincing
all day
people kept arriving
with their impossible hearts
stitched from
worry
music
bad timing
hope
and whatever it was
that taught the stars
to remain
after burning
by evening
even the stones
had begun considering
forgiveness
yes
said the garden
yes
said the rain
yes
said the stone
yes
said the hand
reaching
before certainty
and somewhere
Nigde smiled
as if it had known
all along
that the world
despite its borders
despite its careful instructions
was secretly
a field
learning
how to say
yes
*
Atlas of Almost
Nigde keeps
a small notebook
sewn from distances
in it are written
all the places
whose names
never caught up
the river
before flow
the road
before direction
the window
before the view
whole countries
made entirely
of almost
some are still waiting
in forests
beneath lakes
inside abandoned songs
others pass through
briefly
and leave
without introducing
at night
Nigde turns a page
and another horizon
goes missing
The Cartography of Nigde
i will never understand
why there is so much hatred
towards a community
so built on love
that it can be seen
in every color of our rainbow
red is the blazing fire
the all-consuming passion
our heartbeats pounding
in unison
orange is the citrus
the shared snack
basking in the tangy sugariness
juice running down our faces
yellow is the sunshine
the light
the joy of being who we are
and letting ourselves shine through the grey
green is the emerald
the precious gem we found
underground and buried in stone
while at our deepest and darkest
blue is the sky
on a cloudless summer day
serene and undisturbed
peaceful
indigo is the flood
the unstoppable force
breaking down walls
and transcending all barriers
violet is the flowers
and butterflies
and beautiful moments
we thought were out of reach for us
the reality is
there will always be people
who choose to hate us
for our electric love
but at the end of the day
they're the ones missing out
because they've made themselves blind
to our screaming color
rainbow
A little wind shakes
the tips of my
shoelaces, untied.
I see them dangle
in the pale blue skies.
Brief memory.
Forgotten times.
Shuddering realizations.
Rotten pines.
Yearning for the was,
for the used to be.
Futures lie fogged
like my face in the mirror
after a too hot shower.
Remember.
Forget.
Together.
Regret.
Tussled hair tangled
in the periphery.
A blurry smear
of inky shade
draped across
everything.
A tinge of tomorrow.
A solemn hue of sleep.
The color of the now
is too murky to see.
Too wet with mud and
too, too...
Too tired.
Too sick to be
of much use.
Too sick to be of much use at all.
Little wind
i have seen wildfires,
heard rumors
but nothing
spreads as fast as words on a page
when i write about you
june's flower
