you said you loved me, a single lilac among others. prettier, you said. sweeter, softer. you loved my delicacy, sense of solitude, my endearing growth. however, sprouts whither, and I find myself asking why must you always turn back to smell the roses.
5 year old me thought it was sharing things with people crying with them
12 year old me thought it was holding hands the term "boyfriend"
15 year old me thought it was kissing touching
18 year old me now understands love comes in many different forms sometimes in words sometimes in expressions sometimes in staying and sometimes in leaving.
maybe someday i can fully comprehend what love is :")