jj - Hello Poetry

jj Jan 2019

I don't keep doing this in hopes i die,
I'm just trying to find a way to survive,
I like the partying and the drugs,
But with you around i might just wear earplugs.
I'm killing my body is what you keep saying,
You say that like i'm just playing,
Everyone knows i'm not living long,
We’ve known i'm not that strong.
So let me do my thing,
Its not like i' m looking for a ring,
I don't need you,
So throw away your tissue.

#drugs #heartbreak #addict #addiction #death #party #partying #die #dying

jj Oct 2018

either way addicted

Everyday seeing you,
Making a dream come true,
I could never get enough,
You acting oh so tough.

Aching to hear your voice,
Awaiting your every choice,
Needing to be near your heart,
You are tearing me apart.

You went from being my drug,
To the reason i chug,
Replacing you with xanny,
Digging you out of every cranny.

With you i was always on a high,
That ended with each goodbye,
Now you’re gone for good,
Just like i knew you would.

Searching for anything to feel,
Having no way to heal,
Going back to the crystal,
Maybe i should just load the pistol.

dont fall in love with a ******----soon youll be one too.

#drug #druggie #drugaddict #****** #tweaker #tweakernation #heartbreak #heartbroken #teenage #teen

jj Oct 2018

idiot in love

An idiot is harmless,
Until that idiot falls in love,
Then they’re willing to do anything,
For the person they’re in awe of.

Whether its building a new world,
Or burning the old one down,
They’ll stop at nothing,
To give their love a crown.

Now if that love fades,
And they are left weeping,
They could take one of two paths,
Both will leave an empty heart unsleeping.

Path one is war and rampage,
Destroy everything in their way,
Path two is depression and tears,
They may cause their own doomsday.

Either way an idiot is harmless,
Until that idiot falls in love,
And if you happen to cross that idiot,
Beware for they do not care, they are deprived of---------

i might be an idiot in love.

#inlove #in #love #heartbreak #heartbroken #broken #teen #teenager #falling #idiot

jj Aug 2018

Time Bomb

Months after months calling your name,
I got no reply I'm stuck in the rain,
You're moving on growing in fame,
I don't know how much longer I can keep sane.

I'm climbing this hill getting over you,
Meeting new people seeing new things,
Footsteps rushing behind someone's breaking through,
Not looking back taking down my kings.

Crawling back I hear you yelling,
I've been through this too many times,
I have stopped dwelling,
I'm done with all your crimes.

I've met someone new,
My hand in hers and everything is calm,
Even though I still have your tattoo,
I'm no longer a ticking time bomb.

i can say im fully over him now things are so much better im so much better i got a girlfriend who genuinely cares about my well being and who loves me so im well.

#moving #on #heartbreak #angst #emo #bomb #high #school #girlfriend #pan

jj Apr 2018

whats home

Someone asked me to describe home,
And i let my thoughts roam,
It had a really nice view,
because i was describing you.

They must’ve expected wallpaper and a violin,
But they got freckles and tanned skin,
They said no what about the light,
I said its more about the sight.

I won’t stop talking about your new perfume,
I get stopped and asked about my room,
I realized they wanted me to describe a window frame,
But the first thing on my tongue was your name.

#heartbreak #sad #relationship #home

jj Feb 2018

heartless

As a little kid i looked upon broken teens,
Wishing never to become like them,
And it was true i was never like those teens,
Until i met you.

The start was fast like crashing waves,
We did not look as we laughed with joy,
But after time those waves turned to floods,
And you left me behind instead of enduring.

I tried everything to find you,
The real, old you that once loved me,
It seems as if you disappeared,
And i wish my feelings disappeared with you.

Soon they did and everyone backed off,
You’ve grown cold, you’ve grown heartless,
That’s what i’ve been told by you and others,
But if you’re the one who turned me cold,

Wouldn't you be the heartless one?

why am i so heartbroken over you? its like you were my true love but i wasnt yours.

#heartbroken #heartbreak #heartless #cold #breakup #broken

jj Feb 2018

Death Comes in Waves

The moonlight shines on her hair,
The stars missing from her eyes,
Hand slipping through mine,
Saying her final goodbyes.

Sending my son off to war,
Tears falling from both,
But he's not coming home,
So tears only from one.
Thanking the soldiers,
Proud to be his mother,
Hand over heart,
Smiling through tears.

Slow breathes,
In and out,
Supporting the patient,
But they won't live.
Heart failing,
Life draining,
Nurses rushing,
Silent shushing.
They're gone,
Call it.

told to write three different poems about the same thing. i chose death

#death #heartbreak #love #family