every part of you wants to break free from whatever kind of pain this is
it is not the pain of losing someone to the heavens,
but instead of losing someone who is literally an arms length away
straight in front of you, so close you can smell her
touch her
so close you can speak to her
but she does not hear you
she does not feel you
she does not see you
and still, you will have hope
maybe, just maybe she will reciprocate the love
but,
you know what they say about hope, breeds eternal misery
and you will die
every porcelain bone in your body will shatter, your steady breathing will race, your mind will clutter
and your body will collapse
but you will wake up the next morning still breathing,
the sun will still be shining
the birds will still be chirping
the world will still be moving
it never stopped
time never ceased
but for you,
it did, and you died
and you are just a walking corpse now, going through the motions