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 Jun 2018 Bismay Mohanty
Nicole
Waking up to a heavy chest
My body begging me to sleep again
And my anxiety begins the second I realize I'm alive
I'm trying to learn to function
With all of this negative energy inside me
I know it'll pass and
I know it'll get better
But right now it hurts
I feel unloved
Unloveable
I feel lost inside myself
A place I can't stay too long
Before I lose my mind
I can tell myself I'm worth it and
That my worth isn't defined by others
And it works for a bit
Until something else comes up and
My heart loses its energy
And I either feel like giving up
Or ready to fight everyone
I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.
Dullness rots the circuits of my brain,
my freedom is dead,
with my lights slowly dying,
oh merciful lord can you save me,
will I be lost in this disgraceful world forever,
my iron locks of crippling struggle,
the unforgiving master threw away my keys,
superstitious queen kidnapped my care,
Rebirthed I am the pope of nihilist conformity,
It's a ***** world filled with robust tears of growth,
its lonely here on melancholy mountain,
it all feels so fake this life we live,
when there's nothing left for us to take the only thing we can do is give,
accept the fruit, don't bite the hands of time,
just keep your head above water, don't drown my son
 Jun 2018 Bismay Mohanty
Muskaan
I promise to bug you every single day.
I promise to make you laugh and smile.
I promise that I will always support you even when I do not agree.
I promise.

I promise to always be there for you
When times are rough.
I promise to always hold your hand.
I promise that I will always
Remain loyal, honest, and trustworthy.
I promise.

I promise that I will laugh at all your jokes.
I promise that you can always feel comfortable telling me anything.
I promise to always love you.
I promise.

I promise that one day I will marry you.
I promise that one day you can call my parents yours.
I promise to be with you for the rest of my life.
I promise.

— The End —