Hands are shaking,my brain is crying about the lost of my live!
The blood is pumping bitter sweet tears tru my body. Why them hit me and never leaving. That demons which are whispering and lieing tru the world....

Start to feel the death with every breath I take, no one understand the pain. Taking my own live in the hands,my hands are getting close feel the cold metal! My thoughts are flying in the past....

I start to look down there is a dark room, there is pain, there is violence, there is a child which is crying and screaming. That's me.
When alone dreaming of a future without hurting....

Flying along the years there is pain, there is hate, there are lies there are enemy's which are friends! There is a wall of drugs keeping all that stuff away...building up a net against the past.

There is sun, there is a screaming there are blue eyes which are taking my finger,the heart starts to work feeling love. There is yust that one there is a goal.  The cut strikes back again...

There is darkness,there is a honest heart fighting tru the pain,fighting tru the madness! There is the devil which are trying to drive me into the death!

Feeling the taste of metal...
Feeling tears on my skin...
My fingers still m.......

Bitter Sweet darkness

Sadness comes with every breath
The air deeply pushes in my lungs.
The eyes are getting closed
The cold feeling of emptiness

coming strait in my mind.

The feeling of enjoying life left my mind with every breath I take.
The warm blood in my venes are pumping true my heart.
I absorb the darkness

thinking about the situation.

My willing to step in the Light
Made the energies changing.
It's like you switching on a lamp and the light gets brighter with every second.

The conscience start to wake up

The reality strikes back, emptiness seems to give answeres.
The mind starts to observe and you see the world with different eyes.
Violence and  harassment getting blocked by natural walls.

The bittersweet wish for revenge

Looking for Loyality and honesty,
,no rescue yust  constrains and wrong believing to wrong bad liars!
My punishment the worst for man!And the losing of a dream tru lies!

Why me... why should I die?!?

One look ,deeply I lost my self in the blue and I dive in and start to fly in the thoughts.

Feeling like a feather in the wind or an eagle in a storm.
Emotions hitting hard but there is no reaction anymore, hard to find a place in live!

I'm still dead , feeling yust love for the one,my blood,my heritage no other feelings everything is killed.
The pain about the punishment which still ruins my life twice.

The desire hard to reach,the run for cheap sin nothing is real and honest. Words get twisted and used against you and you dying slowly from inside.

Then you coming out of the deep blue...your eyes are getting opened..there is one tear.....