I gave u a book,
You could write anything in it,
It was all yours,
Yet you decided to destroy it,
Throw it around like garbage,
Instead of love you choose harm,
But I guess that's just how you are,
Aren't you?

I'm frustrated,
Not at you,
But at life,
Its not going how i want it to be
I wanna explore,
be free,
But life expects different things from me.

I'm watching you,
Watching you from my own seat,
I dont need to come nearby,
I can see you just as fine,
I like looking at you,
But i'm rather shy,
So ill sit in my seat,
Watching you live life,
On just the right beat.

As soon as I rise,
I'll rise like a goddess,
A goddess with flame as strong as one has never seen,

Until then,
I'll be here,
Sitting in my seat,
Dreaming of the way I want to be.

I dont know,
I dont know anything,
I dont know things about my future,
or if ill even get there,
I dont know how nor when my life will end,
I dont know if im here for a reason,
I dont know why I cant concentrate,
I just dont know and thats okay.

I had one shot,
one shot to freedom,
to being able to be myself again
But you saw my shot
and then took it,
without a pardon nor thinking,
It was gone,
years of trying...gone
off to the deep end
all because you were too selfish
to just let me get help
and too stubborn to give it back.

My breath becomes heavier, becomes louder,
yet I can't breath,
my moves become slower,
and slower...until I stop,
I can't move,i'm stuck.
Thought after thought goes through my head
and all of a sudden everything goes black,
it's peaceful and quiet, I can breath again,
until I wake up and just need to start it all over again...