just because my brokenness
isn't on my skin
doesn't mean that nothing's wrong
it doesn't mean I win

I see myself everyday
and wonder who I'll be
reflections, decisions, perceptions
what do people see

you read in books that people change
but really who's to say
I have always been the way I am
there is no other way

I grow tired of the way I look
and tired of the way I feel
regardless of your choices
what I felt seemed real

I gave a lot of time to you
I gave a lot of words
but everything I ever said
just always went unheard

I sang you all my love songs
and kissed away your fear
but you never reached out to me
cause you were never here

~~
Then went out of the way
Address not found
Didn't and couldn't be called
want to reach you

I came across a horizon
Evening came down
Heard, you exist behind the sun
Not to fear cause you made
In the dark,
Anyone can't see you
Even not me too

However I wish
I will get
Dark come down as your rules
Find you
Find the road
Randomly
Restlessly

Am I in the same place
Or moving towards any of the
I close my eyes in the dark
Thought I'm black
I have mixed up the dark

Open my eyes and can't see myself
My weight is decreased
Going up into the air
Increasing the speed, have felt cool
Where am I going
Heard something vague
Slowly
More speed increases
I see a mystic haze
I go to the land of conscious to the unconscious

But I can't understand
My chest is open
Is to operate on me
Putting something else on the heart
Sent back to conscious

Yet I have not seen
But hear you!
See the haze again,
In the Songs of dark!
~~

when everything was going well
and I didn't feel like ****
you somehow turned my life to hell
and walked right out of it

you made me want to trust you
you just had to make me care
you told me lies, I told a few
but you left, that's not fair

you walked into my life
and then you walked out
leaving a trail of emptiness
leaving a trail of doubt

I opened up my heart
and opened up my thighs
only to find you don't care
and all you said were lies