For as far as I can remember I've been going thru so much hurt, so much pain... That only a night filled with a soaked pillow from which my eyes filled with tears that flowed dwn the cheeks of a woman who has a inner demon that's ready to unleash and punish all whom have caused her pain.. Ppl tell me things but yet their actions don't compare.. I look at them with anger but keep a silent tongue, cause if they knew the words I wanted to say.. they wouldn't be able to handle the raft of my rage.. I've been hurt in so many ways that the soft spoken person, caring person that I once was is now gone and sleeping within me that I dnt knw what or how I can awaken her.. maybe I need that one person to come and make her magically appear, or maybe it's gonna take some deep meditation on my own to bring her forth. But I'm afraid that this person I've become is holding my inner beauty hostage and is not willing to allow her to come forth ever again. I've been waiting for so long to be loved that it has now just become a laughing matter that my evil side just smirk and grin upon saying.. **** love it'll never come so just let it be.. I still have moments when the beauty inside me voices out but is still trapped to where she can't come out. So she sleeps now within me while the other person lingers on.. Who has the heart or the strength to awaken my sleeping beauty.. for I have grown weak and can no longer fight.. the other person I have become!

Met someone who was all that I dreamed in a man.. filled me with laughter that I haven't experienced in a while... touched me with such gentle hands and whispered such sweet words, that I started to feel myself floating as if I was already in love.. time after time we spent together... moment after moment how we enjoyed one another. Endless text and childish giggles we both receive.. How I'm enjoying him and he's enjoying me.. Minutes turns to hours as hours turn to days.. Things seem to slunder things seem to change. Attitudes come forward.. assumptions bring on rage.. make up *** is what we wanted.. **** how we made each other feel some type of way.. He started acting funny.. I started not to care.. I did what I did cause I wanted he did what he did just to play.. when it all boarded dwn to nothing all I can truly say.. when you think you've found what you wanted.. hell it's truly an illusion anyway!

Let me grab you by your hand and slowly walk you into my lovers den.
Red and white rose peddles lead the way to where it all begins.
Scented candles smelling so good makes your senses spin.. with ****** visions of me sexing you.
I grab you close, you hold me tight.. our lips connect our tongues egnite.. You rub your fingers down my spine.. my eyes roll back.. You kiss my neck, and pull my hair back. I Grip your back and rub my lips across your pecks.. You slide my strap off and I help with the next... You begin to undress, but I said take it slow we have all night... I lay you down and rub oil all on you... you looking up wanting to **** on my supple breast. Your brown eyes glow as we start to connect.. you ask to go down, I'm not one to reject. Your tongue feels so good as it and my **** connects... What a big surprise.. I'm *******.. Now I'm soak and wet... You ask to dive deep but I'm still not ready yet.. So you take it slow and kiss my soft lips.. My body inner parts start to explode.....I'm ready, so I snatched off your draws.. you slowly go in and grind with a motion so strong, my body begins to shake... you had to grab my az to take control.....I'm grabbing you... you loving me... I'm moaning Ooooo... you saying Rose I love you... I bite your ear and lick it too... you're so turned on.... You turn me around and began to eat again, my juices so sweet you smack with each slurp too good to even wipe your mouth. You hit it from behind and turn my head to look deep into my eyes.. I'm even throwing it back just the way my baby likes... I get on top and ride you like the best I am... you begin to moan.. yea I like the sound of that ****.. before you *** I lean over and say.... Let me love you down just like this.
ALWAYS

I stand there in a dark room wondering where I am.. afraid of the dark and the weird  noises that I hear from afar... My mind begins to race feeling as if I'm bout to pass out.. I'm searching for some light.. but my feet are planted in one spot.. I began to let out a scream, but too afraid not truly knowing what's out there.. so I just stood there in deep thought.. let out a sigh and a tear dropped. How did I get here.. how did I end up in this spot.. where it seems so secluded and yet it's so very dark.. where are all the ppl.. where has everyone gone? Why am I the only one here.. but then I thought... your heart has been broken and it's taking your mind to a dark spot... in order to get out this place place you have to let go to see the light... stop lingering on the past for it has made you bitter inside.. for now until you let go.. your mind will stay on the dark side.

(Man meets woman, Woman meets man)
       Man: How are you beautiful?
   Woman: I'm blessed handsome!
     Man: Wondering if I could get to know you?
Woman: Of course
           (Beginning Of Relationship)
Woman: I've been hurt before so I'm very guarded of my heart and feelings.
Man: I'll never hurt you baby, I'll cherish and love you like the angel you are!!
Woman: I hope so!!
Man: Dnt hope baby believe it
Woman: Ok baby
Man: I got you boo!
                      (Months Later)
Woman: Baby you seem distant is everything ok?
Man: I'm good
Woman: You sure?.. Is there anything you wanna talk about?
Man: Nah I'm str8
Woman: Ok boo (Sighing)
                   (Same Night)
Woman: Hey babe where you at?
Man: With my *****
Woman: Okay boo can't wait for you to get home, got a surprise for you!!
Man: Aight
Woman: (Sighing)& (Thinking)
                    (Early Morning)
Woman: Bae we need to talk
Man: Bout what?
Woman: About us boo
Man: What about us?!
Woman: Things dnt seem the same. You really acting different.
Man: It's all in your head.. I love you gurl (Kiss her forehead)
Woman: Ok boo (Blushing)
                    (Week Later)
Man: Bout to roll over to my ***** house.
Woman: How long you gonna be gone boo?
Man: Bruh I dnt knw what's up?!
Woman: Dang I just asked cause I wanted us to go out and have fun.
Man: I'll be busy handling some business mane!!
Woman: Okay boo maybe some other time. (Thinking)
Man: Aight bruh
                       (Hours Later)
Woman: Hey boo what's up, what you doing? (CALM)
Man: Bruh told you I'm kicking it with my *****.
Woman: Which one?
Man: Tony bruh.. Why? What's up?!
Woman: LOL
Man: What's so **** funny mane?!
Woman: TELL THAT *** I SAID HEY AND AS FOR YOU COME GET YOUR ****!!!
Man: WHAT?! BRUH WHAT THE ******* TALKING BOUT?! MANE I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THIS PETTY **** BRUH GONE ON.. ***** CNT EVEN KICK IT WITH HIS ***** WITHOUT BEING ACCUSED OF CHEATING..
Woman: LOL... Hold on.. Hold that thought. (CALM)
Man: H..E..L..L...O
Tony: Hey bruh where you at??? Thought your az was at home I came thru
Man: D..A..M..N!!!!!!
Woman: LOL.... BUSTED BRUH!!!!! COME GET YOUR ****!!!!..LOL
Man: (**** faced)!!!

**** the word love. It brings a sour taste to my mouth just to say it... **** love cause love can get a person hurt or killed and it's the main cause of broken heart syndrome....**** the word love cause when most say it they dnt mean it, but say it cause it sounds good to them.... **** love cause it makes you cry, makes you have mixed emotions you never thought you could or would have.... **** the word love cause it had been misused by ppl for so many years that no one really knows the true definition.... **** love cause I'm tired of giving it out just to have myself looking stupid in the end.... **** the word love cause after a person hurt you that's the first word they use to sugar coat it, but still end up hurting you again..... **** love cause love doesn't suppose to hurt. but seems to be the only thing that's hurt me thus far!!!

Wish I could have another again to start what we use to have over again... Wish I had a remote to were I could rewind back to that night we had our first kiss and we told each other goodnight....Wish I could go back and pause on the moment in my head when I first cried and you wiped my tears and told me you loved me and would never hurt me....Just want another again to be the woman in your life, but I know that fate has taken your attention into another direction and all that we had only seems like drama or seems to be a nightmare you've waken up from and never want to explore again.. But even though we had our hard times I always prayed for another and another and each time I prayed for it to be the best and it would go on for forever... I know that my another again isn't the kind I dreamed of, but only another broken heart and many tears that I cry... Just ask that you remember me and dream that you had another again with me for just one night with only you and I happy and smiling, and remembering the love we had.. And when you awake you can go back to your normal life... But just do that and I'll meet you there... That's all I ask is for another again to sleep peacefully dreaming about you and I.....Another Again!