someone
pull
the blinds
drawn

it’s
getting
dark
again

we used to draw sharks
on our living room floor,
and run away laughing
when it was time to clean up.

we’d sit at the curb
a block away from home,
consuming junk food and stories
no one will ever know of.

u were the baby of the family,
a constant reminder that i had to grow.
and ur name even came from me,
a responsibility i will always adore.

i’m sorry if life has failed u,
i can’t help the regrets that come rushing in, knowing in my heart that i tried,
but u just weren’t mine to save.

i wish we could stay in the past forever
ur hand in mine as we crossed the road,
i wish the innocence stayed in ur eyes longer,
but now it’s time i let u grow.

don’t hold
my brokenness
with your
bare skin

i wouldn’t
want u
to cut
yourself.

i’ll live my past a million times over,
and face the same demons in a battle,
i’ll relish the pain, nicking out old scars,
if it means there’ll be u today and forever.

loving u
makes me
hate myself
a little less

u come to me
so naturally,
almost like
breathing.

one day i would pack up my things,
and leave u a note by the door.
and everything u thought i’d stay for,
will be gone in a couple of words.

i always feared this would happen,
still, for u, i tried anyway,
to ignore the calls of wandering,
but a leaver never stays.