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these words are automatically copied in the news i recently copied from a website talking about climate change. i found this interesting as this gave me a new light on online media platform cause they also needed money and we still "buy" the advertisement as we read the news eventhough we find it irritating. this too shaped the economy aspects of journalism in this era.
i’m trying hard to keep it together desperation is my middle name restless nights and hopeless days i can’t do enough can’t be enough to keep up this juggling act everything is falling apart so spectacularly a fire of blues and reds and purples one that only i can see
so i play a little game with myself let’s see how well i can pretend everything is okay i’ve gotten good at it recently as my plans for my future start to crumble in my palms i can still feign interest over a friend’s passing fling i’ve even been able to pretend my self esteem is going up accepting compliments even convincing myself i’m not a failure it’s laughable, really a ******* like me, who can’t even keep her life from falling apart, finally loving herself? not gonna happen
so i laugh and sit and watch as everything falls apart
Wowee everything has not been good recently, and someone has made it worse, but I cant let it show bc I’m basically the therapist of the group I’m supposed to be the emotionally stable one, the one you can always ask for advice or help in school work and I don’t know how long I can keep up this facade of being okay
tahu apa aku? tahu apa aku tentang bumi tahu apa aku tentang puisi tahu apa aku tentang diri tahu apa aku tentang hati tahu apa aku tentang diksi tahu apa aku tentang mimpi tahu apa aku tentang dingin tahu apa aku tentang pergi tahu apa aku tentang semua ini, tahu apa aku tentang semua itu?
aku butuh berdiam diri menarik garis batas menginjakkan kaki di ambang pikiran yang waras aku akan berhenti menulis sampai waktu tiba dimana aku tahu dan mengerti.