Your silence slices me open
I roll the dice
I want to see tears in your eyes
Instead you just stay quiet
I just wanna reach those
Who have spent their entire life
feeling like they are nobody to anybody
Did you feel the edge of a knife
Pressed to your skin
while your friends
search for their excuses
in their expensive purses
They curve you
Like a teacher who just got laid
Curves your grade
Yeah, I have a lot more words to say
& they say they are pressed for time
Well I’m telling you,
tongues are heavy
because I've held mine
long enough
For the time being
I know I’m not enough
So for now, I'm going to stuff it
and just shut up

How do you write my thoughts on your piece of paper?
I realize you’re reading my mind in the future
I wanna see my heart evolve from the cataclysm of emotion and love
But my emotional heart doesn’t exist
It has yet been replaced by cement
My blood doesn’t flow like it used to
It floods my thoughts

After death, no resurrection
A statement you recanted
The damage has been done
Faith is a loaded gun
A finicky one

You didn’t even bring your bible
All you’re capable of is watching cable
They feed you lies
Eat your burgers
Order your fries
Don't know you’re a cannibal?
A base-less, soulest animal
What more do you want to know?
I’ll show you
How far the rabbit hole goes
Just look at your label
I wear mine
Your is designer
Mine is my design
You never paid the price
Of the words on your jealous noses
You took the name
I chewed it up
I spit it out
In the face of every nameless, faceless stranger I pass by
You sip your coffee
I type promises of love
I taught myself the meaning of the word
I spent all my free-time reading the dictionary of your heart

I'll not procrastinate
I'll write today
about the theme
for the next day
I'll get ahead of the game
Idle avoidance
of imminence
makes no sense

While I'm standing here
with pen in hand
and relevance
in the present tense
having a sober mind
it's now decision time

I’m so glad I stayed in the land of the living
I know it’s just the fact that
I said I wanted to die
But really I just wanted to feel alive
And go outside
I play with my inner child
We have such a good time
It tells me the time is nigh
I need to make a decision today
Or risk losing my mind
I take a chance at everything
I could take in
I take in my fate
You’re a breath of fresh air to those who know what it takes
To do the **** we all hate
And to do it sober
I don’t care
You can call red rover
Tell him he can’t come over
Because you only get one shot
To make your dreams come true
I wish you believed in me
Instead you think I’m crazy
You have no idea what it’s like to live this way
All the **** that you say
That **** doesn’t just go away