It's silent,
All except for the soft breeze.
The world is still,
Quiet, peaceful.
I lay in the meadow,
Drifting,
Falling into dreams.
The long grass brushes my cheek,
As the breeze blows,
Gently,
Quietly through the blades.
Through the silence, mice scurry,
Hiding in the grass,
Going to their nests.
A rabbit nearby grazes,
Silently, peacefully.
A sly fox sneaks by,
Barely noticing me.
It's beautiful.
The serenity is nice.
I'm happy,
Close to nature.
Welcomed,
I am welcomed here.
I am home.

"Just do it!"
"There's no other way out!"
The voices cry.
"It won't get better!"
They get louder.
They won't leave her alone,
Won't get out of her mind.
"No one will care!"
The voices yell.
She can't handle it any more.
"I'm not okay, I'm not okay!"
Her screams don't come.
The tears are falling.
Her heart is breaking.
No one can save her
From her biggest enemy,
Herself.

I am making you unhappy,
Am I not?
Every thought of me
Brings you down.
Every word,
Every “I love you”,
Saddens you.
Because I am not there
With you,
To hold you in my arms.
It hurts you.
I know it does.
So don’t tell me it’s not me,
That makes you unhappy.
‘Cause I know I do.

Why don't the words flow,
As they once did?
Flow from my heart,
Flow onto this page.
Where did they go?
Are they hiding deep within?
The words are not coming,
Not coming to bring relief.
My emotions, my feelings,
They stay deep within.
They make my heart ache,
They won't bring release.

Although
my smile
is genuine,
the sadness
deep within
my eyes
is just as
real.

I want to fall into a deep sleep
Of which not even my
True love’s kiss can wake me.
A sleep of which only
I can wake myself from.
**I would awake only when
My demons have finally
Left my mind alone.

These words are floating
In my mind, ready to be
Written on this page.