I'm in love
so in love
with the idea of you
and I don't know
what to do..

I keep forgetting you
now and then
and in the end
I know you'll disappear
If I ever open my eyes

and now i have to walk
blind.. for the rest of my life

and I'm only alive
for this brief moment in time
and before I leave behind
this world and sleep
I have a few words
I'd like to carve on a page
in a language so strange
that it becomes a cage
for your mind to keep


you don't have to weep
you'll never know
that I was here
that I was yours

I won't bother you anymore

[when it's too far..
when she's standing so close]

from a thousand miles away
down the road


I don't exist.

i cried into the sunset
for a new dawn

i lied enough to forget
that you were gone

now there's nothing to regret
and i am so alone

now all that i see is your red
all i see is your wrong

every tear you gave was shed
in scars you left so strong

thoughts left in my lonely head
where did they come from ?

those monsters beneath my bed
but now it's not my home

these walls now reek of dread
in your silence i mourn

sometimes i wish we never met
and i was never drawn

into the magic that you bred
that has left me so torn

you were the rose for which i bled
kissing with love on every thorn

you took my heart and fled
left me with a stone

those promises that were kept
swept away in storm

and now i wish that i was dead
for without you i cannot go on

Cold on my skin
Piercing the wind

Blood on my lips
When did I do this ?

I don't remember
My wish

None

Nobody to love
Everybody's in a bliss

I'm just a blip on the radar

Nothing yet

A point to forget

Speaking in voices
To myself
Inside my broken head

Awoken dead

Have we ever met ?

Your name has the same size
In a different shape

I've been ***** before
Violated no more

I should hold my tongue
Or I'll offend somebody

Right at the end
When I'll become anybody

Just to ******* own words
I've never been hurt

Maybe that's my flaw
I'm nothing at all

No medical condition
To speak of-
No deterioration
To prove my law

Am I just mad ?

Or  bad ?

Who's supposed to know that ?

Is there more from where
I've come

I thought
The thoughts were done
Being cruel to me

Feeding fuel to me within

It hurts when I burn
But it's my turn
To make sense

Of this strange body I am in

Cold on my skin
Fighting the wind

You'll never get to break me

I'm a stone without
A centre

No gravity to lend her

She's only pretty
In the mirror

I'm just a stranger
Spending the night out
In old

Stranger than fiction
I'm awaiting my eviction
But there's no conviction
Only one condition
If you want to buy me whole

Give me your soul

And I'll make you a door
From the lies that die
Deep within my empty mass

You'll never need
Another word again

For there'll be nothing
Left to drain

I've been bled
So many times before

I'm just a black hole
With no co-herent
Existence today

Leave me please
Love me deep
I'm about to cease
I'm about to breathe
There's nothing to feed
Nothing to sink my teeth
It'll be another millennium
Till I'll be freed
I'm not the circus you can seek
Nor a dream you can sleep
Not a road you can reach
I'm your god
I'm your slave
I'm anything you crave
Left alone in a cave
Made one in your mistake
Every machine ever made
The life you make
And the life you take
I'm the rotten seed
The forgotten forests creed
Far from the civilization
I abide by my greed
I'm not the one you can teach
I have no soul to preach
No walls you can breach
Just an ocean
That you can never keep
One that will never bleed
Or breed
Everything that's inside
For I am
One and only
No matter how much you laugh.

Little girl you're a bird
Ready to take wings
and fly away to the moon

Little girl it's absurd
But nobody will love you
before you come to be
and bloom

There are monsters
just like there are men
And then there's your prince

You would know
what to do and when
You had your heart broken
and you haven't felt
the way you did ever since

That's how it is
Every teenage romance
that started with a perfect tale
that grew cold

That's why it is
You're one shot short of annihilating
yourself when you're old

Thinking why did you
ever believe in fairy tales
And did Cinderella
really ever needed a man ?

Why is it that
every love story has to be
about a winning girl
Why never a winning man
?

Guess you'll never understand
Everything beautiful
must be shiny and clean
And if you want to be
a pretty girl you better
buy that expensive cream!

Otherwise you'll get old
Just like the mother
nature intended
They won't like you
if you haven't bought
what they've already sold
And trust me
All of them will be offended
So easily..

Remember that this world
won't even spare your first mistake
You aren't a man
And that's enough reason
to buy you your share of hate



Be proper always
World will accept nothing
less than a woman who
knows how to be a woman
from the perspective of a man

I hope you understand
You can only be as much of a woman  
As much as they tell you
That you can


It's a mans world
My little girl.

puddle of memories
childhood rain
come again
i can't remember the names
of those
i should've forgotten
a long time ago

them ghosts
and tales of dread
keep whispering the dead
and I'm afraid
i've been made  
a wrong time ago

this place at this time
reminds me of things
i still don't know about
and i see nothing
though i was never blind
i could never see
what they had to show

it builds up slow
to break me down
my condition to wither
guess i was never meant
to linger
around the dancing clown
and laugh
when he tells a joke

breathing the last of air
my share is complete
and I am
completely incomplete
without a story
i can barely
swing without a tale


i'm so sorry
for words that fail
whenever I try to speak
i guess I'm only relieved
that you never have to
see me ever again

remember my name
that was all I ever was.

Stuck inside my own mind
I'm a prisoner to the slave
This pain isn't an end or kind
I have no friends in this cage

Turning pages before they burn
In six months it'll be my turn to cry

So let me grieve for a moment
For there'll be nothing left to feel

I wasn't meant to be
and I don't know why

I see the river flow into the sea
Is that what's going to be my destiny ?
I look inside the mirror
I can't find me
It's screaming at me
Screaming at me with all of its hollow
It's so empty
As if it has swallowed everything



So feed me your dreams
Mine were killed long ago
I don't know what this place means
I was never smart enough to know

Always searching for a tomorrow

Now the rain never stops
And my eyes are always blurred
I'm at the bottom sitting on a rock
Thinking about you and your world

In my own way
I'll tell you about my words

They never came easy
Until I was pretending to be hurt


Turning pages before they burn
In six months it'll be my turn to cry

So let me grieve for a moment
For there'll be nothing left to feel

I wasn't meant to be
and I don't know why



So let me lie
Let me say my goodbye
It's my time to die


It's my time to fly.