Austin Evergreene

Sep 2019

Buried Words

Alive

Sometimes,
The hardest part.
Is realizing that..
We are

Alive

Austin Evergreene Sep 2019

Skies, overcast
Gray

Sidewalk below
Gray

All my memories
All my past
Gray

Take my hand
Let me lead you
Away

Let me lead you
Far from here
No more gray for you,
My dear.
Gray is cool
And you are warm.
Gray is still
And you’re a storm.
Once we find
Your verdant home
I’ll go back
Where I belong-

To Gray

To be continued???

Austin Evergreene Oct 2018

#000000

I spill my heart onto the keys
And to the screen it flows.
My mind's a dark, deflated tire
That rolls across the interweb.
It cracks their screens and breaks their hearts,
Their spirits squished and flattened out.

Austin Evergreene Oct 2018

The Veil

If I asked it would be awkward,
What you're thinking,
If I'm boring you,
If you loathe me,
If you're having a bad day,
If it's awkward because you have Feelings for me,
It so awkward.
Why.

I try and I try
To read into your dismissive
****** expressions.
Why are you so disinterested?

You laugh with others,
But never with me.

I'm angry because
I simply do not understand.

I'm angry because
An answer I cannot demand.

I'm angry because
My mind must be broken.

I'm angry because
Your thoughts must be spoken
If I'm to understand.

Nonverbal communication goes over my head, and awareness of that fact is torture.

Sep 2018

andromeda green

Are you okay?

Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?

You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)

- a.g.

just a reminder that everything gets better folks. please, please hang in there. i believe in each and one of y'all.

UPDATE: thank you so so so much for 51k. the overwhelming amount of comments and messages and loves make me feel so happy to spread this poem. thank you.

#happy #sunshine

Austin Evergreene Sep 2018

Light Refracted Through Ice

Trapped in my own skin
Within a hollow shell of ice.
Stay cold to survive.
Alive, I warm and melt.
A bad hand dealt to me -
Supposed inabilities,
Freeze my will to break the exoskeleton.
For if I thaw,
My life becomes a puddle of pathetic liquid.

Austin Evergreene May 2018

Copying Money Does Not Make One Rich

Socially awkward

I thought
I learned
To cope
But nope
I fought
To learn
The way
To act
So I
Could gain
Respect.

It turns out
All along
I was wrong
And my life
Is simply

Elaborate forgery of social skills.

#reality