silence left to its own devices breeds silence
but even when you leave me screaming
words still do not pass through your lips

unconditionally
my love for you runs
like a river through my veins
a rush to my head
a pain that's not a pain

you are as beautiful as the stars
i just hope you're not as fleeting

i cannot breathe at night
and maybe it's just the congestion
or maybe it's the constant fear of myself
that creeps into my mind through the night

the darkness brings darkness

i miss
getting drunk
and talking to people
whom i'll never see again

i am not
everything you think i am
i am
so much less

red stains my mind
a color not of choice
but of forced persuasion

it seems that no matter
how much good is in my life
happiness is fleeting

i understand
if you want to leave
i would too

i am trying
trying to be better than the person
i used to be

i am trying
trying not to isolate myself
from everyone but him

i am trying
trying to include you with us
but you react negatively

i am trying
trying not to go back to who i was
but life is so much easier
with just one problem in your life

i am trying