i’m a leaking bottle of bleach

i’ll lie down and stain everything


i’m lonely and bummed

and i deserve free ****

the more i lose, i still grow taller

till the last one falls

and then i crumble

it’s exactly what you think it is
it’s 2pm
i’m drunk again
and i feel so alone in my throat

staring off at the blank walls that surround me

I don't think I'll ever recover
from the nights I spent sobbing
staining the pillow with the makeup thats been left on my face for days
I don't even care anymore
the pent up rage
the anger
the disparity
I want it to leave

leave behind the empty vessel that once held a pure soul

with you sinking down next to me
i found it hard to sleep
so last night i stayed up and watched
the whites of my eyes turn green

will you visit me
under the willow tree?

i tried to see you
but the strings make my hands raw
and the ashes burn my skin

mixing benadryl and cetirizine leaves me in a hazy dream

now times passing through me

why cant i feel myself moving?

my heels are raw and bleeding
my mouth has been cut up

i’m so sick of being the girl lying in the snow
crying on the side of road

you live in fear
your empathy will empty you

you’re so ******* sour

i wonder if it hurts
i wonder for how much longer
i’ll keep picking you flowers

couch locked
my teeth are feeling rotted
and i’m sick of all the nothing on your face

katie tried to find a dentist
but i can’t stand the taste of metal

my gums bleed while we drink boxed wine

i want the night to stick around

so i don’t have to keep finding new sounds

that i like

i’ll just end up sleeping all day

trying to avoid the pain

it’s been almost a year

things still feel the same