The funny thing about life's surprises
Is finding out what you thought to be true was all just one big white lie
Once upon a time no longer a land away
The days you cried out and thought you couldn't go on
Haunting your thoughts, but not taking over your life

The things that used to cause the tears to flow
Now just make you stop and think
People which used to break you down
Now just help to build up other relationships

The unexpected outcome of tragedy, joy prevails
The paradox of a forgotten bittersweet memory
The moment you realize you'll never be the same
Changing you forever, messing with your whole, safe, outlook on life
What was once a sad, dark mess is now a bright and sunny paradise

You don't even know
What you do to me
What your words can cause me to think
You don't even know
How you make me feel
How I just want you to say what you never will say
You don't even know
That I go to bed crying
That my tears reflect what I never could say

I just want a hug
No questions
No whys
Just hold me for a few seconds
Let me feel your peace
And calm my soul

Those nights back when everything was fine
The stars shone down on us
Looking at each other, our hands intertwined
Tears didn't exist, heartache was unheard of
All we were was just two innocent kids
Always together and and madly in love

The butterflies in my stomach never stopped fluttering their wings
I never felt the silence of a stare
You were all that I knew to need
No one warned me that we could end
Or if they did, I just ignored it
All I could think of was how I needed you to be my friend

I feel the constant need for your approval
For you to say I can or can't
The constant need to know you're okay
If I do this or say that or go there

Why can't I just be independent
And do what I want to do
Why can't I just say, who cares
And not worry about what you think

At night as I lay there crying
Your words, or lack thereof, are what keep me up
They make me wonder if I'm enough
Or if you just make it through with the failure I am

I know I fail, you can see it too
So why do you stay, why do you torture me
Make me happy and sad all at once
You mean the world to me, yet you tear it down

You bring to my life
The most joy I've ever felt
But you take from my soul
The only love I ever knew

Why must you be so kind to me
So loving and caring
But then turn around and make me feel
Like I am nothing compared to you

Is this how I'm supposed to live
One day feeling great and the next terrible
Is this what love is always like
One day on fire and the next burning down

I just want us back to how we were
Laughing and loving and inseparable
But now as I look at you from across the room
I know that it can never be again what it once was