It's happened again so here we go
You're afraid to open up or just give in
Because I've hurt you again
Like I've been known to do before
But how don't you see that I'm just here to heal your wounds
To pick up and fix the broken pieces on the floor
And baby you maybe jaded but don't ever fade away
If you only knew how alive you made me feel
Where do we go to find ourselves
When this world brings us so much pain
How do we cope with the things we hate
(the things that made us feel this way)
Can't you see the effect you have on me
You stay inside, try to hide, deny
But I just always want to make you smile
When do we know it's alright to take the jump and not look back...?
We may never know and
That's what makes this life worth living for
Taking chances, loving, giving yourself away
And I can't stand this state you're in
I just want to make all your fears go away
Because you make me weak every single day
I've been trying my best to figure this out
But I'm tired of pretending I'm doing okay
I sold my soul to the idea that we'd be better off this way
We've had all the conversations leading up to these frustrations
Now I'm lost and it's enough to drive you away
I thought I was doing just fine
But I've lost my crutch to lean on
You're the only one who can rescue me now
On you I don't ever give up, even when I'm fed up
You're my only hope
My heartache's melody, insuring all this pain inside of me
Distance overwhelming me, I'm lost without you
We both know these times are heavy
I've played it back a thousand times in my head
The perfect scene I want to keep living
It will all pay off in the end, I just want to see us through all of this
Because I'm not ready to let you down
So, tell me can you forgive me now,
For ******* you up, for bringing you down?
And it's a sign the way your eyes reflect in mine
We'll be just fine, you and me, if we just stay us the way we were meant to be
Because I'm blown away every time I see your face
We keep shifting from the foot to the head
Shaking the frame of this bed where we lay
Catch our breathes and wonder what's to come next in the common tasks of a day
You're all talk and you've been teasing me enough  and
You hate it when I call your bluff
But it  doesn't really matter in the end
Because all I ever really want is to stay in your arms, safe, take the force of the blow
You said it, I meant it, but we don't seem to notice anymore
Tried to prevent it, but how do you stop what you can't control?
And we've been here before, feeling like we can't take much more
I try to put myself in your shoes, but it's of no use
I'll never know what it's like to be you
And when we say now that things will get better,
Does it mean anything at all?
Wish I could take you away from everything bad and erase all the pain
But I always tend to bite off more than I can chew, and things don't work out the way I want them to
And I know it's not your fault, just hands we get dealt in life
with always the same amount of cards
But my luck has turned to hell and it's made me a skeptic now
But you still manage to leave me breathless somehow
You think I don't get it when your world is crumbling down, but  I'm always around, trying to make you smile
This doesn't make sense
It's not fair and it feels all wrong
But regardless you still mean everything to me
And I don't know how to let you go
Because you are my weakness,
The only one I ever truly love.

Let it burn slow
As my heart becomes numb
And it's okay if it's bitter, I found out
So is the taste of love
Clear, transparent, and 80 proof
Just like my soul was to you
Feeling lost and confused
Like I always am without you
And I catch myself wishing
You were whispering my name
Every star, every scar
Every mark upon my heart just up and fades away
And I feel myself missing everything we threw away
Every dream, every scene
Every song we'd ever sing
Was lost in yesterday and
Now I'm trying to do without you
But I can't seem to give up this fight
And I know everything would be alright
If I could just kiss you tonight so,
Should you find yourself wondering if I still think about you
I want you to know that
Every thought, every step with
Every tear, and every breath
I swear I do
This backwards leaving, game we're beating
Stupid reasons, useless feelings
I'm not surprised
It's all a part of our failed attempts to say
Goodbye
Now I'm bleeding where I bled
You're hiding where you hid
Burning out instead
Of trying again
And the softer side of unbearable makes for complicated feelings
My minds been mistreated, I wasn't prepared for this
Now I just want to disappear
Drink until I'm unaware
But instead I stay awake
Feeling cold and tired
Right back where I started
Drinking myself blind
Trying to forget all the reasons why
You're no longer....
Mine

I want to be wherever you are because,
I was around from the start
And we've come so far
I still have only you in my sights
And I want you there the rest of my nights
I tie myself into knots
I get so lost in my own skin sometimes
But it takes time and it takes faith
To build the things this life can't break
And there's some nights we're worlds apart
But there's no goodbyes for us
We're wild ones at heart
And when you're gone
I've no one to lean on
And only you can light my dark
Because you're the better half of me
The only half I need
Mirrors, they lie to me
And sometimes you don't recognize me
Sometimes it burns but I don't feel anything
It only hurts a bit
It's easier to quit, harder to admit
You're pulling away from me
Laughing like it works
Bleeding like it doesn't hurt and I
Hate how I need you even after you
Tear me apart
But I'm always on my knees
Because you're the better half of me

What a ride this has been
I'm exhausted and I know you are too
I feel so drained, like I have made no difference whatsoever
I want to get you out of the dark place you're in so bad
It hurts to watch you sleep and have to wonder where you're at
Baby come back to me, please, just come back to me
Don't go to that place where I cannot be
Don't leave baby I need you here with me
I'm so tired
I ache from all the mental and physical stress
My emotions are a mess
I just want to fall into a deep slumber of peace and quiet
I want to lay in your arms and feel safe and secure
Why can't I just save you
Why can't I help you through all of this
Why can't I be where you are
I feel so unfunctionable
I'm so tired
I want things back the way they were
I want the old you back
It's like you're half alive but mostly dead
Even in my dreams lately I can't reach you
The thought of losing you scares me so bad
I have started this love thing with you
What good is it going to do me if you're not here to see it through to the end
This is why I was so hesitant with my heart
This is so tough and I don't know if I'm strong enough
I didn't want to need you this much
I didn't expect to want you or miss your touch
I have to get you through this
I have to muster all my own strength and pull you out of this place
Let me help you
I can't watch you unravel in front of me like this
It's like you're falling and I can't catch you
You've been barely hanging on and letting go with all of your might
When I fall you are there to pick me up so why can't I do the same for you
I am just so confused right now and I need to talk to my best friend about it
Feels as if I'm spinning out of control
I feel **** faced drunk
I want to feel pain.
I want to hurt like you are
I want to understand your pain.
Feeling you inside me in my veins is the only cure for this ache
You have become such a part of me and I a part of you
When you hurt it hurts me too
When you smile my soul lights up
When you cry my heart weeps with you
I don't know how this connection between us happened
How is this all possible
Obviously I'm not good at explaining this in words
But, God, I just miss you so much!

I guess now would be a good time to tell the truth
But the honesty I carry will surely bury you
Like your lies I believed were true
I am not like you though, you're always right
Never wrong,
And you're a sad sight for these sore eyes of mine
A headache for my now weak and tired mind
But you still get me so tongue tied
And I know it's a waste of my time
Because you've become the smile I no longer force
You're the distance that's come between
And I just tried to be everything you'd need
Selfish minds think alike
And I'm wasting all your time
You were in love and so was I, but
Now you can keep your hands to yourself
I know those lips have been on everyone else
Save it for the bedroom when you're not alone
Keep all your lies to yourself,
I've already heard them all from someone else
You ******* me good, and
I became another mark on your shirt,
Just another night and another girl
But admit it I tasted good,
Go home now and wash my jeans
Because there's dirt on the knees
And jealousy consumes me
You loved me, well I loved you too
Especially below the waist
Because that's where players play the game
Those eyes of yours go to my head
But they're n longer enough to take you to my bed
You talk a good game that's for sure
Now look at the face you chose to play
Did you win what you were hoping for?
We will never be the same
Because this is war,
This is my heart,
And the stakes have been raised
It's your call,
So much has changed,
So, lets get this straight
Only you could of taken it away
And that was too high a price for you to pay
I played the lady, you played the gent
And we called it all time well spent now
Here we are standing in the calm before the storm we have been weathering for so long
Now it pours, and it's felt not heard
It washes off all our colors
No need to wear them anymore
Just remember all your lovers, and all the respect that was lost at their door
You had front row seats to me on my knees
Wasn't the show everything you hoped it would be?
We were onto something, you and me
Now you're just teaching me the game you play so well
So many things you said and I won't get over it
Because all the disappointment has caused me to move away
So I can train myself to maybe trust again someday
Just know I'm the best you'll ever get
And you've convinced me to never love again...