We bleed so many colors when we open Ourselves up wide Burning blue in the night And it's hard to make this work When you're feeling all alone But, I've been waiting so long To hold you in my arms Embrace you forever Make you my whole world Water fills these eyes Still love notes and Valentines Aren't enough to keep me in your mind You are the shadow of everything That I'm not but want to be You wrote your name inside of my life And that's where it will stay We wait until dark To try and make a mark One that remains until we're done Pretending again Trying not to forget where we are Or who we're with Words can cut this tie we've made with The sharp side of the blade And our words play out They drag us down make us Start to feel like one of them Just make sure you keep me in your heart Write my name in your bloods ink Why did you take my life apart? Why did you offer me the world? When the night is full of faces am I still the only girl? Because you're still the only one I turn your world from disaster You make my heart start beating faster I ask the questions You give the answers Need you now and I can't stand it I never thought this would be easy And you let me go when I say I'm leaving So whisper softly as you try To tell me how you feel Just tell me how you feel I need your voice tonight Pick me up, put me back together Stitch me up, make me feel better No control of my emotions A ticking time bomb ready for explosion This life we made is so full of color And that will not change But we could change the way we see them and Your words fade when I explain Why I hate them We are the same And I keep repeating All that I'm needing Say you're right here But you seem so distant Saying sorry again the same old story so now tell me how it ends...
I want to scratch these words onto pavement When I hear your voice saying Reel me in then you disappear again Left on my own This is what it feels like to be alone All I have now are these words on paper You wrote them down just to erase me Afraid to show yourself I was never for sure how you really felt While I kept track of time that was already spent I always came up empty handed in the end Try to forget it but you left scars everlasting It won't leave my mind and I suffer slowly Like being punished for all the lies you ever said How do I execute my feelings so you understand The silence hurts my soul You just want what's best for you that clearly shows And I'm left with crying eyes because You can't erase a sin Your sweet nothings were so deceiving Nothing left to say that hasn't already been spoken You don't need me Like I want you to And you can't see me the way I see you Just wish I had you like you have me When I was lying on the floor I can't believe you wouldn't save me But you blame me You messed with my mind And I wasted your precious time You said you would never let me down but, We are so unforgivable now
I've been walking alone Waiting for someone like you to come along, To take my tortured heart by the hand And force me to become strong I'm so tired of hiding behind this Smile I'm forcing that even I don't recognize anymore Do you know... I'll never have all the answers and You'll never have enough time, But we'll sure have all the reasons Why this isn't what we wanted to find Do you know... I'll never lay all my cards out even if You just want to play because, These days everything's all business And there's a lack of arms around me now as I sleep Do you know... Sometimes I just want you to paint my face And pretend I'm made of clay, to just start over So someone could sculpt me into a better shape Because I can feel myself slowly falling apart So won't you come take a walk in my shoes And maybe you will see then that it's not so easy Trying not to love in spite of me... Did you know... Sometimes I find myself shaking in the middle of the night Then it hits me and I can't believe this is my life... Why do I make it so hard to love me? Why would anyone even start to try? Because I can see all my bridges burning now As all the smoke is in my eyes... Do you know.... I just wanted to always be right But I've been wrong from the start I've waited for you Tried to make you happy Closed my eyes and let you fall apart And I wonder what you think you could possibly know About breaking down that I don't.... Do you know... It's been a long time since I've begged for anything But I'm begging you now To lay me down on this bed of rust I'm lonely help me shake it off like dust I know you don't understand me And you'll never even try... But just know... I don't mind killing all my time as long as I can lay here by your side And see that look in your eyes The look of confusion and lust As I remove this iron smile That's been weighing me down too much And when tomorrow comes It will be just one more day that we don't find true love Because we don't know what it means...
It's muggy outside tonight with a cigarette lit and ***** in this can making me realize how tired I really am what a long week it's been for me and your face is all I manage to see bad dreams last night have me feeling caught in an emotional fight what is it I really want...? do I need *** or sleep perhaps something in between I sit and shuffle through the cards life has dealt practicing my best poker face will I ever find my place...? so much for me to have to decipher... and I'm so **** tired
Forgiveness, hard to give Pride, easy to have Hurt, not easy to let go of Hope, hard to find Faith, hard to keep True Love, the hardest to give, have, let go of, find, and keep...