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Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
I am smart,
But when it comes to
matters of the heart I sure am dumb a lot!
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
Colors won't ever change
But you changed the way I seen them
Words will fade once you explain
But I'll remember them the same
Lets make this count
In these last few hours
Start counting backwards
Falling in reverse
Saying goodbye is always the hardest

You don't have to ask for anything
Because you are my everything
I never felt complete without you
I'll never heal, I'll never forget
Want to leave my hate and surrender what's left but,
I'm all burnt out on words from a liars mouth
If you want more than just know that there's none left to give
Must I die for you to live?

I'm asking for the right
To drain you dry tonight
Save yourself before you forget
Let's meet somewhere in between the sheets
Heaven, hell or the bed I don't care it will end in regret
I'll take you away from everything
You're a dream and I a nightmare
Watch as I pick myself up off the ground
Listen as I scream
I fell in love in the dark somehow

As I turn my back and walk away
From all the pain
I'm tired of waiting
I need you now more than ever
You're the minutes and I'm the hours
Meet me somewhere in the middle
You still have me because I'm still breathing
Exchanging the sunlight
For brown eyes and dark skies
Replace this dull life
Just waiting to feel alive

You know me too well
I'm sorry can't you tell?
Just wake me when it's over
When the credits start rolling
I'll be the girl who got away and
Who never let you down
Never held you back or made a sound
So what scares me the most....
Being alone or being alive while feeling dead?
Can you sleep tonight if someone else holds you instead?
Please don't leave you have half of my heart
And I can't live if you take the best part.
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
I've had enough
and I say it sadly
The last year
has been driving
me insane
Everything I thought
I knew
hurts so badly but,
All the daggers
in the world
could never
cut me like the words
you let roll
off your careless tongue
Now,
I hear you whisper
with your hand
resting on my hip
You will always
feel my fingertips
tracing the scars
and tattoos upon
your skin
It took so long
for you to get
close enough  
to me
I didn't want
to be a curse
as your patience
was always
my blessing
But all the doctors
and the pills
can't cure the way
I feel about myself
Too afraid to ask for help
from anyone, for anything
It takes time
prescribing a means
to an end
And I'm
Feeling addicted to
this prescription
The problem lies
within the help
for me
this time
So, I just smile through
the pain
and suffer as
I let go of
everything
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
Our lives are so different but
I was lonely when we first met
You don't have to speak
Because I can hear your heart beat
You don't have to hide
How you feel when you're in love
I'll always know I'm not enough
I miss you now in this
Self afflicted coma
Days drag on like rolling thunder
When I feel all the stress
I'm lonely and depressed
I know it hurts to feel alone
Because I'm all* by myself* more
than you could know....
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
Upset
Bad day
Trying to drive
the pain away
All that remains,
Leftover tears
Anger running
down both cheeks
Feeling all alone
Left to deal
Drenched in sorrow
Wanting to find some
hope
for a better tomorrow
Bite my lip
forget the bleeding
Weeping as
you wrap me
in your arms of healing
The deeper I cut
the worse you hurt
Slowly I open wide
and
Find relief
in your life,
Finding the love
I've needed
in your eyes...
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
You live your life
like you're
on fire
But I could never
dance gracefully enough
for your flame's
desire

Paint runs
Ink bleeds but
I could still draw you
perfectly
Even if I were blind
and could not see

I'd give up my eyes
for you to see
clearer
I'd give my
fingertips
to touch you
forever

I live my life
hiding behind
shadows
And I can't breathe
when
I need you
here with me

If I close my eyes
I can
still see you
But that will
never
be enough
I long to
again feel you
Ashley Rodden Jul 2014
You love me
I'm the only girl you adore
I'm so beautiful
I'm what you've been searching for
I'm all you ever wanted
With the best personality
I'm so smart
Bright as can be
You're going to buy me a diamond ring
I've changed your mind
I've patched your heart
I give you hope
I'm your light in the dark
I'm your best friend
The reason you came here to live
I'm baby girl
And I'm your heart....

I'm acting like a child
I don't get to be pretty pretty princess
all the time
I live with my parents
who are ****** in the head
Have a child with an idiot
From a stupid redneck town and I'm
Never going to get out
I'm so unreasonable
All girls are nuts
I make a whole bunch
of dramatic stuff up
I should go to the
gym if I'm so insecure
My mother and I
are the same kind of *****
I'm mean
Always hurting your feelings
I poke and gouge
Ouch!


So which words do you mean?
Which ones are the truth?
What am I suppose to believe
when you're so back and forth?
How do I trust anything you say?
How can my faith in you remain?
You want me to believe
You want me to stay
Don't give up on me you say,
But I'm too tired to any longer remain...
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