As I'm falling down
My heart still beats the same
Even as the tears stream
From my blinded eyes
Shattered glass becomes
My reality
Burnt pictures and memories
Keep lying
There is less beauty in life
Than in dying
Blood always stains
The sun no longer touches my face
The road to hell is paved with good intentions they say
I tried so hard to heal the scars and touch your heart
But nothing's as it seems
Hurtful words ring so clearly
Sitting here playing Russian roulette
Gun loaded and pointing right at me
Withered past and a blurry future
Digging this pain inside my chest deeper
Just wish I could
Reverse the curse
Forget how others had your heart first
Like poetry to my ears
We take what has been given
And blow it away like dust
It's hard to be forgiven
When there's nothing left to say
Lying face down in so much pain
I refuse to see that my mind is anarchy
Worthless liar
I come on shameless
But I am ashamed
The sight of my own reflection
I cannot bear to see
Shadows shroud every step I take
Falling from grace the devil's laughing in my face
Fighting for a life that has beat me down
I stand and scream but hear no sound
Rise from the fire a phoenix
Alive and inspired
You cannot erase me
I'm a sinner conceived by the flames
Started broken hearted, busting at the seams
Standing back watching my world decay
I don't know why I'm falling apart but I
Need to find someone else to blame because,
You're not the reason I'm insane
I've tasted life's cold steel blade
Choices haunt me everywhere I go
It never goes away
Too busy with the lies they sold me
Open myself wide to all the **** they feed me once more
Are you satisfied?
I've given all I can
Are you now pacified,
Or do you still want more from me?
There is a thin line between pleasure and pain and I'm
Walking this tight rope while the ends slowly fray
This could be the death of me
Staring in the eyes of truth
The image is cracked but so is the view
Feeling so dominated
Issues pinning me to the floor
Like being rapped and left for nothing more
Hiding from the scars of my own reality
Sedate myself until I'm drowning
Got a pill for everyday
And a little black dress to mask the pain and
This monster inside that I'm feeding
Lacking perception in all that I do
Crying out in pain
But no one knows where to find me
Screaming out in vain but
No one can reach me

Walk the silent emptiness
that leads me into shattered tomorrows
Tear away the skin
that has taken me so long to stitch
Licking my wounds from yesterday
Feeling so hollow today
Time passes never waiting for me
Open me up and expose me to your ways
I am twisted like your brain
Immune to what I've became
I've been taken for granted
And it's broken me
Wearing me down to nothing
Everything is compromised
What will you think
When all you see is only a part of the other me?
Because you can peel away the outside
But all you'll find is the shadow of a soul inside
Take a drag and look at the world
with dying eyes
Staring at it dead while giving it head
waiting for all the things I love to never come alive
It's okay if you want to hate me
I'm sure I'd be better off without the animosity
And I wont believe in you when I'm reminded
of everything you put me through
You tried to make me feel sorry for
your self-inflicted misery
It's okay if you lie to me
But don't think I'll have anything left to give
when you come crawling back again
Don't look back just so you can lean on me
You've taken all the life there was out of me
With the words you say, pushing me away
Living your life a different way
Expecting me to do the same
Separating our lives and then wondering
why
I up and walked away
Too much time
Too many wasted days
Too many things I've never spoken
Now I'm setting free all this pent up emotion
I've never told you what to do
Never made you a promise I couldn't be held to
How many different faces could you show me?
How could you always be right?
Living in your world of fantasy
Dramatizing everything
Leaving me dead and broken again
You never wanted to be sober
Just wanted to feel numb all the time and
You can always justify whether you're
walking dead or alive
Wasting your time however you like
Does life feel better with a hangover sometimes?
You were the spoken truth, I was the lies in you
I made you shine in everything you would do
I was your lighted way and you my darkest day
Funny how you could always rely on me
But I can never depend on you
We are suppose to be best friends but
This is no longer the life for me
This isn't the way I want things to be
I was your peace of mind, confusing all your time
I ran through your veins, and you were my pain

All the love letters written on tear stained paper
Smeared my hearts ink across the blank pages
My heart's broke for the last time
You promised truth
and really made me believe all  your lies
I thought love was suppose to be free...
but the cost for yours was way too steep and
It hurts but I don't think it can get much worse
Being so invisibly desperate for you

I took my chances on a bruised and beaten heart
Guess I got what I deserved, after all
Forgiving is hard to do
Now pain is all I have to show
You took my heart and you broke my soul

Your urge to break loose was just too strong
And I've almost forgotten what the color of your eyes were
and your scars or how you got them
Seldom did your words reign true
When you were failing me and
I was just trying to save you

You were always so sad
hiding behind your mask
And I came so far with my soul
But you never seen the gem within me
I could of been your happy ever after
But I'm only human and though
I tried hard not to, I crashed and burnt out

The words from your tongue were knives in my heart
You built me up just to tear me apart
I just wanted to turn your mechanical heart back on
I held up the weight of your world and mine times three
Just trying to be your everything but
Somehow I lost the love I loved the most

I've learned how to live half alive now for what it's worth
I wish I would of missed the first time we kissed
because you've been nothing but a broken promise since
I'm left like a smoking gun now that all our love is gone
I thought we found some magic
But you left me neglected, how tragic

Now I walk away and let it be
Ignore my instincts as I'm led astray
Another bend, another break
I'm not sure where I go from here
Between wet pages and all this smeared ink
A tragic, lost en devour our love has come to be