Between the lines
I see nothing but doubt
You tell me one thing but really believe
Something else yet
You want me to trust
You want me to give continually and
I want to believe every lie you tell me
But I just can't let my heart fully trust
The guise you hide yourself under
Just take all your wasted honor
With all your past frustration and problems
End them with explanation points
While you walk around like a one man army
Fighting regret with all it's fury
Reliving the same old moments in your head
You fear so much, the giving in
Tell me you never loved her or anyone but me
Then let me read about her in all your poetry
Your faith has been broken
And your eyes are shut tight while you
Walk down the realm making no sense to yourself
Caught up in the fight
Hooked on a substance that's digging its claws deeper
While the pity penetrates your skin
So sensitive it makes you sicker
The salt enters your wounds
Never letting your fear heal itself fully,
Consumed
You become a comfortable liar
Ignoring the loss of sight with
All the suffering kept within you
Inside the negativity is starting to rust
Healing has to begin in the past
So stop trying to fake what really exists
Drunk again your ego has grown
So big now it swallows you whole
You would rather be tossed to the side
Feeling your life has made no sense or sound
Thinking  it's a waste of time to chase the truth now
Left with no way of knowing if you'll ever be at home
Never wanting to be alone
You need to open up your eyes
You've been flying like a jet plane that's about to wreck
Switching lanes like you're racing a corvette
Hitting on all the girls who love to have ***
Wondering if the devil is a lie
Wondering if God really exists
Pondering what is death if life's just a *****...
It's time to save yourself
Because the tide is rising high
It's time for you to sink or swim
Or be just another man overboard abandoning his ship
Just let the bridges burn
Forgive what has been done
Throw up all the lies inside
Nail yourself to the cross because
Living costs everyone a price
Don't feel so sorry for mistakes you've made
along the way
You're father told you not to bite your tongue and you
Hate your mother because she left you with no love
Wanting to wrap your hands around her throat
Squeezing until you can feel no pulse
Wanting her to pay the price for betraying you
You have bottled it up and swept it under the rug
All good things must come to an end
And we live in a world where it seems like evil always wins
The lobbyist, pessimist, cynical hypocritical mess with a
Self destruct personality
Not dealing well with the responsibility of reality
Always walking on the verge
Killing yourself but not admitting you're a murderer
Don't let this be the only thing that matters in your life
When everything around you has failed
Who knows what the future may bring
Because eventually the truth will always prevail itself
It's moments like these where you really have to think
About the broken dreams that you sold along the way
Like riding on a carousal
Thought you had it all figured out
But have spent most your life
Addicted to the pain you cause yourself

I breathe you in
And laugh as I choke on wasted nights
They were the best times of my life
But somehow I'm sleeping alone
And I don't want anyone to wake me up
Because now the thrill is gone
The sunset is turning red
Behind all the smoke
Forever and alone
I have been strapped to this bed
Where the taste of you and me
Will never leave my lips again
I want to hold your hand so tight
That my own bones break inside
And when the drunken moon sings tonight
I'll sing right along
Because I know not the words to any other song
Don't you dare blame me
My love for you was shameless
Now I can barely whisper your name
So, I'll try to write it in my own blood's ink
And if that doesn't work
I'll sing it
Because the song will be yours forever to keep
And when the sun sinks down into the ground
I'll scream over the sound
I know what it's like to feel burned out
But please just put it down
You're just wasted and dwelling on the past now
Baby, it will all be okay somehow
I know you think you can't take anymore
As you draw the shades and close the door
I know you would rather die than sleep one more night alone
So if you need to be free
Why don't you just say something?
You're made of poison and it's killing me
You're leaving me just when I thought you were mine
And I can't see your face as
Failing dreams amass a hundred sleepless nights
And maybe I'm holding on a little too tight
Because nightmares no longer wait for my sleep they
Leave me crawling on my hands and knees
Do you still love me?
Is what I'm dying to know
Have you forgot what we shared?
Were you ever really there at all?
Thoughts in your head that will never leave
Is that a price you're willing to pay?
Constant recovery
When you choke it takes my breath away
Just promise you won't leave
I know you're tortured within
I see the hunger in your eyes once again
Am I the only one who thinks you should stay alive?
Calm on the surface but the bottoms where you lie
Telling yourself just one more taste will get you by
I'll hold you down
While you destroy the world
I hear you breathing on the phone
I'm not your type
I'll just leave you hurting every night
Screaming into a pillow alone
Drawing hearts on a steamed up bathroom window
Should I love you back or just leave you alone?
What you love is what you have
And you would die right now for
Something beautiful to take you somewhere else
Just break down the better side of me
Forget regret and
Taste this lust like a hammer to the teeth
I can show you what being in love really means
This is all for you
To the end
I'll never leave without you buried next to me
They will never take us alive
Lets just chase away the darkness
So we can live in love and die
This is all just a test
Stone cold sober and scaring us to death
And I don't care if you're sick
I would kiss you no matter the consequence
You are something to me beyond beautiful
And I am perfect with you
They say our love will never mean a thing
But as long as your heart still beats
I'll love you with all of me

All your doubt is a staircase for me
But the first step is the one you believe
And the second could be profound
but that doesn't matter to me
They can have the money and the world,
diamonds and pearls, all I want is to
Follow you to where forever may be
Without a doubt I'll remain by your side
And I'm not about to compromise or say goodbye
Not all of life is cruel or untrue
So don't turn it all inside of you
I'll whisper kisses in your ears
Touch you so soft and warm like falling dew
I'll confess all my love without words to you

Stare into the flame until you see past the light
I fight the sin you've carried like a corpse all these days
Let it all just fall away tonight
How far you go no one knows
You don't want to live to waste another day
Hiding in the shadow of mistakes you've made
You don't want to lose it all
But it feels like you've hit a wall
And now you feel broken and scarred
Out here nothing to you seems clear
Except the moment you decided to move
And disappear into the fear
But, you know there ain't no coming back
When you're still carrying the past
Just let me erase all the blurred lines
Leave a trail of broken pieces for me to find
I know it feels like you're breaking inside, but
I still remember like yesterday
When you had a smile on your face
and dreams in your eyes
I'm missing those days
Something has gotten in the way
And I just want to hold you up and tell you
it will be okay

Don't let your mind get so weary
Don't let your heart get so heavy
Because within you I see a strength
that just needs to be dug up like a treasure once buried
When your soul is lonely
Just don't lose your faith in me, because I know
All you've ever wanted was a place to call home
Well I'm here to shelter you and miss you when you're gone
Just speak to me so I understand your tongue
Bring what's yours and take what's mine
Just leave all the rest behind
I'm not here to stain your mind
With make believe and pretend

You can put yourself on trial over and over again
But you can't make your guilt pay for a sin
Just like you can cage an animal
But you can't take away it's rage
All I want is to be for you a gentle touch
Assuring you love is enough
I might be an angel without wings but,
I've got the pixie dust so,
All you have to do now is *believe

If love doesn't make you want to live
Wouldn't you be better off dead....