it was a pretty long journey
i was happy
i was sad
i was desperated
i was scared
i was struggling
but it came to an end
we broke up that night
but i am happier now
breaking up never feels this good
when I was still a younger me, let's talk when i was 19 or 20
heartache can be caused by losing a boyfriend
you know the pain right?
you know how hurt the pain is, right?
when I turned 21
the same kind of heartache still there
different man, different story, same heartache
still when I was 21
it happened on August 2018
I lost my grandpa, he passed away
heart attack, they said
it was hurt so bad and i can barely breathe
it felt hurt, but different kind of heartache.
then October 2018,
same thing, different person, happened
I lost my best friend on a plane crashed
it was terribly hurt
it felt hurt, but another different kind of heartache
and after that,
losing a living human is nothing but a pinch on my cheek.
if they're still alive, then you're not losing them.
I know that feeling,
When you're angry
but dont want to hang up.
He makes you mad
but still, you dont want to hang up.
He says something that annoy you
yet still, you don't hang it up.
We tease each other
and still, you dont want to hang up the phone.
i see her on the cross of the street
and wave her hand
i see her on the cross of the room
and hold her stomach
i see her on the cross of the shadow
and say nothing
then i wake up and realize
she was there
as the plane crashed the ocean.
it's been week and you still not identified. is the ocean wants you stay?
she lost her hope as the plane went down towards the ocean
in 400 knots
she closed her eyes right before she lost her heartbeat
Dear Michelle, one of the greatest friend. the sweet and kind creature. RIP Chelle, you will always be my shine.
I believe it was over months ago
It feels like
You are here
And telling me
You miss my laundry scent
You said you miss me.
And now i doubt it.
do you what is the most painful thing beside losing you?
having memories with and about you
when i talk about you
I'm sad but also happy at the same time