I tried to change
I punished myself,
For every imperfection
But it seemed there was a new one everyday.
They wouldn't leave.
But when they didn't;
Everything else did.
My life disappeared.
Along with every 'friend'
The only one who was there was the shadow,
The one leading me down my path to destruction.
Weighing me down more with every step.
But I don't mind.
Because he will be there until the end..

The storm rages on,
an endless cycle.
Territory won and lost daily,
doomed to repeat.

Relentless waves of attack,
pounding upon steadfast walls
lined with tiny timbers,
encrusted in golden pebble-dash,  
the armour of Poseidon's minions
on display as grim defiance.

The tides of battle turn constantly,
but with each assault the fortress falters.
Foamy charges batter and breach,
tearing down the walls,
melting into nothing.

With just sand, sticks and shells left,
strewn over the battlefield,
the war is over...
Until, the next summer's day

I hate you.
I hate that I think about you
I hate that you don't think about me.
I hate that little things remind me of you
I hate that you forgot about me.
I hate that I talk about you
I hate that I cry about you
I hate that I still care about you
I hate that you ignore me.
I hate that I know you use me
I hate that I let you use me.
I hate that your still on my mind
I hate seeing pictures of you
I hate hearing about you
I hate being interested in what you do.
I hate texting you
I hate that you don't respond.
I hate thinking about you every day
I hate the disappointment you bring
I hate the sadness I feel.
I hate that I can't have you
I hate that I can't get away from you
I hate that I don't try to.

I knew a girl who had no soul,
Void of emotion, just an empty hole.
Beneath her chest lay a heart of stone,
No heart to love so she's all alone.
She longs for someone to set her free,
To save her from her misery.

She lays awake in the middle of the night,
Waiting for her dreams to veil her sight.
For only in her dreams does her heart begin to beat,
Only in her dreams can she feel the suns heat.
In her dreams she feels alive,
But eventually her dream does die.

When she awakes she's still alone.
Her chest still hallow, her heart still stone.

I keep my feelings in a bottle and I carry them around.
Corked and sealed I keep my emotions bound.
But the weight is getting heavy and my chest is starting to ache.
And I'm not too sure how much more of this I can take.
To expose them is to risky.
The price is too steep.
The thought of being vulnerable makes my heart skip a beat.
The fear of rejection and humiliation keep my emotions at bay.
I would rather tell a lie than say what I really wanna say.
Just like Romeo and Caesar I have a flawed personality.
Does this mean that I am ****** to live out a tragedy.

The silence of the room, I sit and let my mind wander.
Things go wrong why should I even bother.
I think back to the night, I saw you across the room with her.
Kept finishing my drinks, til the night became a blur.
I believed the lies you told me.
Felt safe when you would hold me.
But it was all just an act, a scene in your play.
I played the fool, and regret it everyday.
The curtains are pulled, and every thing goes dark.
I sit and let my mind wander, as I slowly fall apart.

Almost everyday I feel like crying.
At first my emotions are under control
Then in the blink of an eye despair sinks in.
My chest feels tight, my heart aches.
I feel like at any moment I'll break down,
Allow the tears to pour freely from my eyes.
But I don't, I keep it in.
I do not give myself the satisfaction,
Of the body trembling
Earth shattering
Cry that I yearn for.
I take a deep breath
To ease the tightness of my chest,
And hope that I make it through another day
With out giving in to my weakness.