I am an island,
in a vast sea of people all around me,
the concrete waves,
and gray, cloud filled ocean,
envelop me and surround me with an ever larger foreboding of time.

I seek acceptance,
and the fellowship of someone to be united with,
but I feel close to no one.

The world is a lonely place.

Time is slipping away
I
Must understand how to go forward
Everything,

I
S

So confusing and disorienting.
Lies have been unearthed,
I
Push forward through the pulsing, reeling
Pulse of my heart.
I
Need a way, to
Go away from this dreadful place.

A
Way to see the beauty in life,
A
Year of being free.

Why can't anyone see this vibrant pain I feel?
It burns across my skin,
It flickers beneath my eyelids-
I can feel my pulse in every nerve.

Why is it unaparent to all?
How can something so real not exist for you?

I walk with it all my waking moments,
It swims in the dreams I hope to achieve.
My heart can't take much more of this weight I carry,
It's oozing from my pores.

I hear the clarity in angel's voices.
I believe in the purity of innocence,
I just know nothing but the pain of sin and hopeless desperation for  the ability to care about anything at all.

I'd rather be soaring above the clouds,
High above your embrace.

Where is your embrace?

I close my eyes and drift with the music,
Impervious to your embrace.

Where is your embrace?

These walls are closing in around me
Shutting the doors on my escape

Where is your embrace?

I'm not the one, not the one who knows,
How to hold your embrace.

Where is your embrace?

I don't have the courage you think I do.
I need your embrace.

I like to watch,
   From a booth,
Or a table,
         To see how they interact.

J'aime beaucoup les gens,
    Les personnes qui sentient,
Je boire.
     Je lire.
         Je regarder les gens.

Why is it that we are so alone?
    Qui connait la verité?

"It's okay to be afraid"
     "Desperate to brush the lips of grace"
In this grey, dim place-
We all call for shelter.

Hold me on my knees,
Take the sorrow from my body,
     "Hey I'm graceful," teach me to be stronger...

Wrap my body in a blanket,
   "Put my body in a box"
Hold my hand,
Assuage my fears.

Help me see, I'm not alone.

It's a beautiful day
     In a beautiful world
And I just want to
Let.
     It.
        Go.

The sky is clear
     My mood is light
My heart is open and free.

Music plays
The sounds of this restaurant surround me
I feel... Happy?

Contentedness is my safety blanket
   Am I content?

The beer is cold
     And my novel enthralling
          These people are too kind.

What more can I ask for?