chest so tight,
day to night.
you next to me,
all i can see.
desiring you around,
never to be found..

i lived my life in black and white,
ignoring the shade of gray in between,
and found it empty; incomplete

hate spitting outward,
pride ****** in,
eating away at the bones,
the bones of the high and mighty

killing my pride,
a hand around it's throat,
loving everything- hating nothing,
peace, happiness,
living in full color

i found life full and overflowing;
acknowledging a sea of color and life,
i live my life with a spirit, freed

a feeling so uncontrollable..
i feel so incredibly in love,
so incredibly infatuated,
so masterfully swept away..

the cliched concept of dark to light.
so simple, yet bright.
when reversed, tends to spark fright.
nothing goes right.

asked for death, but was given life
how dare that god ignore my plea!
should've never woken up

sleep softly, i tell myself, eyes closed.
he's okay, i whisper, try to believe.
hold onto the i love you's, his words.