i was born
for you, not i
how » why » simply
my heart, it aches
simply ; it cannot contain
the sea of love ; it overflows
why should i give myself
why do i hold so much
simple ; simply
i was born
for you, not i

& i once held it in
thinking i had nothing to give
& i destroyed • & i broke
everything
but i was born
for you, not i
i am love

You are probably the most confusing person I have ever met.
You are an idiotic *******,
You even make me mad with just a few words spilled from your mouth,
But even through the things that infuriate me about you

I still love you

I want my love to wrap you up in warmth like a blanket you sleep with at night
Let me fill you up and warm you from head to toe, on a cold night
With the stars shining there beautiful glow  
This is not a sickening sweet romance filled with desperate longing
It does not make your heart so fast that it falls out of your chest
No I do not love you with my heart

I love you with my mind

I love your creativity,
how you obsess over things you love,
how passionate you are,
the way you never give up no matter how much you get pushed down
How you put everything you have into what you're doing
All the weird things you do
Hell I even love the music you listen to
I love it all

The list goes on and on forever
I could list things from sun up till sundown

But I could never love you with my heart

Let us hold each other thoughts in the palms of our hands rather than hold each other
Give me your ideas instead of a kiss

Let me love your mind

Sometimes when I sit in silence I hear voices
Whispering in my ears, like a breath so quiet you struggle to listen
To the hush you can barely make out words
Shivering down the spine like cold water
Igniting the flesh in goosbumps
My whole body stands at attention
Running a fevered hand across the brow I try to forget
Because sometimes acknowlegement invites trouble.

I write to express my grief.
The countless hours of intermission,
stuck in this purgatory-like place.
Looking for a way out,
of the self-diminishing,
spiteful,
neglect I push toward myself.
When I look in the mirror,
I pray people see the disgusting being,
that I see when I look there.
When I'm in public,
I hope to god,
a car would hit me,
someone would hurt me more.
When I'm alone, I look for more reasons,
to add to the list of excuses to **** myself.

Infected by my hatred
Yet you're the one who gave it
Now you come back to take it
I was a carrier but now it's faded

Now I have no drive
What's life if you don't feel alive?
What can be done
To bring back all the fun?

A sad sky and dark eyes
Tears fall, the world cries inside
It cries, as do I
At all the pain I left behind

Dead yet I'm still breathing
Dead yet my heart's beating
If you cut me I'd still be bleeding
A demon awakes and it is feeding

I've got nothing left to lose
Except, perhaps, just you
This emptiness runs right through
Makes me not know what to do

So I was a carrier of hatred
Now I'm a carrier of nothing
This body was so tainted
With the thought of somebody