Right now,
my world is in black and white
I feel nothing, I feel numb

I feel like drowning
but I'm not underwater
I feel like suffocating
but nobody's strangling me

I feel like my world is about to end
but in reality, its just me
Its just me thinking that
Its just me because I'm all alone

The first time I met you,
I didn't think of you much
But then there was a spark,
when our hands first touched

Time went by
We talked night and day
We grew closer and closer
I have so much to say

I started to notice
I think of you often
I incorporate your name
with every word spoken

This can't be right
I am falling for you
All the time, I wonder
If you feel the same too

I am going insane
I don't know what to do
Should I tell you how I feel?
Would you say you love me too?

What do I know of hate?
What do I know of anger?
If I turned out fine without him,
Why the hell should it matter?

Being angry for over a decade
Doesn’t bring one much laughter
It only brings sadness and heartache
And resentment to another

I would love for this hate to disappear
Be gone forever
But why am I so keen on holding on to it
Like I’m losing a piece of treasure?

How can I ever forgive you?
And free my self from this disaster?
If I keep on hating you everyday
Creating longer distance from each other?

I have loved you for quite some time
And I believed you’d always be mine
In this world full of uncertainty,
I know I’ll be fine as long as you’re here with me

Through ups and downs you were there for me
And I, was there for you
We did everything together, we were so happy
I was convinced, everything is real and true

Right now, a bad feeling dawns on me
How come we’re not as happy as we used to be
I say you’ve changed but you don’t believe me
You say I should stop acting like crazy

My feelings are hurt but you don’t seem to care
You always make the issue go away
But I’m telling you right now, you have to make a choice
If you’ll let me go or *make me stay

Should I leave or should I stay?
I ask my self all the time
If what we have is really worth it,
Why do these questions keep popping on my mind?

I have loved you and I still do
but things between us are not the same
I have to pack up all my courage
just to be able to say your name

The love I have is turning to hate
and you don’t even seem to notice
The affection we had is long gone
Its been replaced with hateful malice

I’m here to tell you, I am leaving
I can’t take this anymore
Its my decision, please respect it
I do believe I deserve more

I tried not to love you
so hard it almost destroyed me
The feeling of helplessness
is so annoying and consuming

I tried to hate you
so much but I still care
What's left for me to do now
is to stay away and disappear

I tried to be friends
in every way that I can
But your sweetness still gets through me
In my eyes, you're still a man

I tried to be cool about it
never let the feelings show
But my heart's pounding is strong
I don't think I can ever let this go

I tried to confess everything
free my self from this torture
I opened my mouth, no words came out
I guess what I need now is closure

I tried to forget and move on
Nothing will ever come out of this
I stared at you, you held my hand
Pulled me close and gave me a kiss

I thought forgetting you
will be easy
But you filled my head
with so much memory

Now all the time
I feel lonely
Because I know
you'll never be with me

I wonder if you feel
such sadness too
We could've been
but we chose not to

On rainy days,
I think of you
The moment time froze
just for us two

My heart feels heavy
because I know we can never be

My mind is aching
from all the thoughts I have of you

My hands are cold
and you're the only one who can warm them

My eyes are red
from all the tears that are falling

My throat is choked
but I still manage to say your name

My chest is in pain
from all the feelings that cannot be tamed

Nobody knew she was in pain
She smiles perfectly. All is the same.

She blends in the crowd. Just standing in the rain.
Her heart is breaking. Don't know who to blame.

She stares at people. Who doesn't know her name
She wonders if they notice. Her dying flame

She thought what if she disappears,
be forever in despair
Would anyone look for her? Would anybody care?

I always felt strange whenever I'm happy
I always thought things should happen differently

These good things are not meant for me
Please, take me back to reality

Can somebody save me from this cruel insanity?
I feel like drowning in disappointments and uncertainty

Is this happiness really for me?
Or is fate playing a game to hurt me intentionally

This time, can't you allow me to be happy?
I want to know the feeling of not being lonely

Some things are best kept hidden
Some thoughts are best forgotten

Some bridges are just meant to be burned
Some lessons are meant not to be learned

Some words are better off left unspoken
Some hearts are just meant to be broken

Some dreams are meant to come true
But it'll never be my *dreams of you

Take a chance on me
I'll make you really happy
Every moment you'll spend with me
will be joyous for eternity

Take my hand, come with me
I'll take you away from here
We'll go somewhere, our sanctuary
You'll never shed another tear

Take my heart, its now yours
I'll always be by your side
I'll love you and take care of you
We'll be together 'till the end of time

The world is a strange place
I heard my self whisper
As I stared outside the window
and saw the roses start to wither

I know change is inevitable
Sometimes life is fast paced
But then why do I feel terrible
As if all good memories will be erased?

Two roads are right in front of me
Now I wonder which way to go
Whichever I choose I’m scared I’ll forget
And fear I’ll drown with sorrow

This is a phase I need to go through
I know it’ll make me strong
I just need to get over myself
And stop thinking my decision is wrong

"Time will heal you",
is what they always say
Whenever you're hurt
and in so much pain

As time passes,
as the memories turn grey
The pain subsides
but never goes away

As time continues,
battle scars add up
You feel like quitting
but you never give up

Time will stop,
things will be better
No more agony,
only joy and laughter

I send messages all the time
It's so sad when they don't reply

So much time has passed
Life happens to some, so fast

I just wish we could've stayed in touch
A reply from you now, would mean so much

You got me trapped in a cage
that you desperately call love
You love me when I'm useful
and you hate me when I'm not

Is this what love is supposed to be?
You just damaged all of me
Isn't love supposed to make you feel warm,
secured, safe, and carefree?

Is this all that love has to offer?
Or is it just you?
Am I really a pitiful lover
whose leaving is long overdue?

I have to leave from here
This all has to end
I need to go now
Please let go of my hand

I have lived with times like these all my life.
With troubled heart. Troubled mind.
I always find ways to ease the pain,
But like sickness with no cure, I still feel the same.

Times like these are always triggered by something,
And they always occur at the worst moments of thinking.
But I tell my self never to cry,
For one day I’ll find answers to the questions ‘why’

For now, I’ll take a deep breath.
Laugh with my friends, try hard to forget.
All the recurring nightmares that’s filling my head,
Will someday disappear and my struggles will end.

You're that big "What if"
I know I'll probably regret
But I don't want to entertain
all these feelings that I have

I tell myself it'll be a mistake
to go and fall for you
Too late now, I've already fallen
What have I got myself into?

I dream about you and me,
all the things that we could be
I know they'll never come true,
if I keep loving you silently

I wish I could tell you words,
"Oh its you, I adore"
Though I know you're with someone
But I hope you'd hold out for more

What is real love?
I have often asked
Is it when you see each other
Share every moment without being asked?

Is it when you look into each other’s eyes
Holding your breath, exhale with a smile?
Is it when you hold that perfect someone
Make them feel safe even just for a while?

Is it when you kiss their tender lips
Pull them closer and never let go?
Is it promising them forever
Hold their hand tight, as if there’s no tomorrow?

It is somehow complicated
To know what real love is..
But I know what we have is love..
And its real.. And I’m glad that it exists.