Even though you weren't half true
I saw something in you
That made me to want to stay.
They are a part of you, those scars,
No denying that, how can there be?
You are not alone though, never alone,
and there is no shame, not one iota.
Any who judge you, find you lacking,
Are not worthy of your time, nope!
They will never understand; never!
Just accepting it that it happens,
Just like it might rain tomorrow.
Accept yourself and learn, love,
Find ways to cope, to push through,
Know that you are all right, yes?
They are a part of you, those scars,
No denying that, how can there be?

I think it can be fun to be single and date-like when you don't want a relationship. Or when you've just gotten out of a relationship, and, after get over the initial shock, your thinking, Hey, it's kind of cool being single.  Being single is happy. We all deserve to be happy.

You've shed tears on my shoulder,
you've made me laugh and smile,
You've picked me up from every single low,
If ever I'm in trouble, it's your number I dial,
It makes my feelings battle, to and fro,
We treat each other soundly, like family some would say,
For you, I'd simply take that fatal shot,
I'd never ask the question, just move right in the way,
Yet emotions, sure of them I'm simply not,
I always sat and wondered: what if we could be more?
What if I'd taken one more giant leap?
In honesty, confusion, I think it closed the door,
And now it's left me but a ****** heap,
I see you as a sister, and that's how it should be,
I don't want our relationship to end,
For we were never lovers, and now it's dawned to me,


**You're always better to me as a friend.

I can never bury
my love for you
deep enough
for it to stop finding
its way back
into the light.
The more I try,
the harder
it bounces back
like a boomerang.

Someone never came, but something did happen.
I got tired of waiting, so I started to move.
I couldn't.
There were chains all over my body.
I started screaming at the top of my lungs, but no one heard.
I felt hopeless, and desperate.
I was angry and afraid.
Amidst all of these, I heard a whisper. The voice spoke louder,

Let go, child, just let go.

I was too confused and afraid.
The biding of the chains was too tight.
I realized that most of weight of the chains was in my hands.
I was the one holding the chains that trapped me.
I let go of the chains that bound my body.
Slowly, I freed myself from everything that stopped me from being happy.

Be free now, child. Do your best and never give up. Let go and let me handle everything. It said.
Joy and triumph filled my heart.
I was free.
I was alive. And all I had to do was let go.

I am waiting for you to look my way
Because I've wanted you to notice I exist
I'am waiting for you cause I know you'll
Come back.
Please come back,
I'm waiting.

I didn't know
why leaving
appear so attractive
to me
but then
I always
see myself
coming back
to you
over
and over
again.

It's crazy how you once called me baby
crazy how everything has gone hazy
And crazy how I can't breath without shaking

It's funny how you once said you loved me
Funny how everything is hanging by a tee
And funny how I can't shake this wanton feeling to just be

My mind is spinning,
I'm so depressed and weak,
I want to say why,
But I cant even speak.

Tired of fighting,
Not wanting to give up,
I want to be strong,
But I'm not that tough.

To deny I love you.
Would be like denying my name?
Everything about you impresses me.

Your attitude.
And even your changing mood.

To deny I love you.
Is like denying the truth.
So I admit.
I love everything about you.

In plight of loving you,
I bleed,
And willingly surrender my self to death.
But my heart is entangled with yours,
But I have to depart now.

Im not giving you away,
it's just that,
someone really deserves you, my friend.

There are a very few things that anger me, they assume noth­ing makes me angry. Just because I am cheer­ful, I am not allowed to feel low. Just because I am less often seen in a bad mood, they assume noth­ing can spoil it. I don’t react to every­thing that hap­pens around me, they assume I have no opin­ions whatsoever. I am not harsh on any­one, they assume I am meek. I don’t pun­ish, they assume I can’t. I for­give, they assume I forget. I don’t brood over the past, they assume I am ‘blessed’ with mem­ory loss.

When I come across peo­ple assum­ing things about me, I try not to lose heart and tell myself, they are doing the eas­i­est thing they can do, which is ‘assum­ing’. Assum­ing is equiv­a­lent to not under­stand­ing. Those who fail to under­stand, either because they are unable to or because they don’t want to, are the ones who assume.

**So, don't judge me.

And
all of the sudden I felt
really tired
Like the world had drained me
for everything that
I had.

Crying every night wasn't in my plan.
Tears running down my face.
I can't help it.
I love you, yes it's true.
But you broke my heart.
What did I do wrong?
Why are you doing this to me?
Do you love me?
Do you care for me?
Do you think of me?
Do we have the same feelings?
Please, tell me.

My heart is weak, my soul is deep with words I can speak
But, would you listen, understand or even believe
So I prefer to show you in actions, take you through a journey of my thoughts
So when words are spoken then walls are broken
and you believe in my love
Because my heart is weak, my soul is deep with words I can speak
Do you believe?
You are the light when there is no sun.
You are the rainbow after the rain is done.
You are the star that twinkles in the night.
You are the moon that glows so bright.
You are the wind that whistles my name.
You are the love when the world is the same.
You are the flowers the bee's never miss.
You are the beach the warm sun kisses.
You are my everything, my love.

I want to be
your vintage crooner for life
Frank Sinatra mixed with Marvin Gaye
with twenty-first century style
I'd greet you at the door with flowers
and be your chauffeur to wherever
you want to go I'll take you
there's no rush; we have forever
our life can feel like a movie
almost too good to be true
sooner or later you'll realize
I've always felt that way about you
galas and road trips
would only be enjoyable if I'm holding your hand
I think that we could see our dreams
with our own awake eyes
so come and ride away with me
and we can have the time of our lives
whether Sunday morning pancakes or a Tuesday noontime lunch
breakfast in bed or a Venice bistro will be equally fun
and if God takes us that far
I'd point to you when a kid asks what a Queen is
and someday many years from now
when we have an empty nest
we'll remember the feature film of our romance
and decide that we did it best

I might yell at you at times. I might get jealous. I have erratic mood swings. I am utterly stubborn. But I know you can handle me at my worst and I will probably listen to you. I promise you that if I give you my heart it will stay with you forever. I'll never cheat on you and be utterly honest. I'll be always holding your hand through good and bad times in our life. I'll love you with all my heart and soul. I will be faithful to you I'll do anything I can to hold our relationship together till eternity. Promise me that you will never ever leave me alone.

Everyone has a fatal flaw.
The thing that makes others begin to hate them.
Ruins many of their relationships.
Ruins their feelings,
Or the way they interact.
They interfere with everything.
I have one.
Maybe even two.
I push everyone away.
I never shut up about how terrible my life is.
I don't know how to fix these problems.
But everyone has one.
I'm sorry.
Really.
I do not know how to change.
This is who I am.
Flaws and all.

I tried so hard. I tried my best.
I gave you my all, and now there's nothing left.
You stole my heart, then tore it in two.
Now I'm falling apart, and don't know what to do.
Blinded by fear, drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free, looking for a way out.

I will always remember to forget the things that made me sad,
But I will never forget to remember the things that made me glad.
I will always remember those friends that have stuck by me.
Now, I will find my true happiness.

To everything I've ever lost,

thank you for setting me free.

Happiness is a state of mind;
It sparkles when the world is kind.
But sometimes sorrow enters in,
And spoils the joys that are within.
Each of us has his day
When all the world looks dark and gray;
But when we know that God’s about.
We’ll have no more fear or doubt.
Happiness can be a little thing
That makes us glad and want to sing;
It can come in mighty form,
To keep our life forever warm.

I want you to know
something I'm trying to hide
the way that I love you
is stuck bottled up inside.

I want to tell you
exactly how I feel
and that my feelings
are completely real.

I want to tell you
that I truly do
love you with all that I am
this is the truth.

I hide this feeling
only because I know
you don't feel the same
and I can't let you go.

I don't tell you this
for many reasons
but mainly because
my friendship with you
is too important
to ruin by three words.
I love you!

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day.
But try to hide it in every possible way.
Just a friend, and nothing else.
That's the lie you keep telling yourself.
You keep on saying just a buddy,
But deep inside you're falling in love.

But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that, just a friend?
Perhaps it's wrong.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her girl is an impossible wish.

wishing things had never changed.


when you get what you want,



but not what you need.

I don't know why. Why am I still thinking of you. Why am I still concerned. Why I still care. Can't fall asleep thinkin' of you. When you get mad, I don't know what to do. Long ago, we're like bestfriends, so close to each other, talked everyday, no secrets, having a good time, and lots of memories. But now, I am just a "Friend" to you. A FRIEND! Hoping someday, we can go back to the way we used to be.

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?
A broken heart.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece, So I no longer love you.
I want to loose my memory so I no longer think of you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad lonely face.
I want to sleep but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do?
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery?
I can't seem to find anyone to make feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
the way you say my name,
the sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can forget you? If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on? If life is not the same with out you.
I want to brake free and move on but I think I'll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.

I have been wildly enthused about gaming since I was younger, and a career path I chose not to go down but did really consider was getting into programming and game design.

You made me smile
You made me laugh
You made me blush
You made me forget all my problems
You made me feel better about myself
You're the reason why I'm happy


         but, little did I know,
  that the reason for my happiness
                  could also be the reason for why


   **I am broken

If only.
If I ask you, can I court you? Would you say yes?
If I ask you to love me back, would you say yes?
If I tell you, I love you, would you say I love you too?
I don't know what to do anymore.
I feel so desperate, so confused.
So please, just tell me if I have a chance.
What do you want me to do?
I'm so depressed, thinking of those things.
Oh please love me back.
Please, say yes.

My heart beats fast.
As I walk by and pass.
You stared at me.
And it melts me inside.

I don't know why.
I always feel this thing.
It gives me joy.
When I think about you.

I am too shy,
because I'm a wallflower.
And I'm afraid.
To tell that I like you.

I'm sorry for hurting you, like the way I do
I'm sorry for the hurtful things I always say to you
We know the fight will never last
but still the amount they do
I'd like to say I'm sorry for everything I put you through.
It kills me when we fight, and it scares me too
I always make you cry and it kills me when you do
As I write this now, I know this much is true
I love you with all my heart and will always be with you.
I did not mean to hurt you
But there wasn’t much I could do
I had no option but to lie
I know that made you cry
I know I broke your trust
Don’t let our relationship bite the dust
I beg you, I sincerely pray
Please forgive me for the that fateful day.
Second chance for us is all that I want.

I can’t even begin to describe,
The absolute joy; the warmth; the elation;
That came over me that moment,
Even if for just a moment,
That you took me by the hand.
I can’t even remember the last time
I wanted something so small to last forever.

All I’ve wanted to be is closer to you,
In every way possible.
To know your biggest dreams
And your deepest fears.
And if somehow those things
Magically lined up with mine,
Only then could I show you
How big I can smile.

But that night,
Despite
All the distractions that were,
That was the one thing that I know
I did not merely imagine
On a drunken night.

But right now, I’m okay.
Here; far away. From you.
But I have that moment;
Even if it’s only mine.
Of that one moment when our hands
Intertwined.

I woke up with a start. I remember every detail of it.
It happened as if it's real. I remember feeling the chills in my bones,
the feeling of being loved.

But then again, I know it's not real. The barrier between
us keeps on growing bigger and thicker. This love I feel, no matter how
intensely powerful, would never be able to save us from the whirlpool of judgement and neglect.

Why do we have to feel this right love at the wrong time?
Why do we have to deal with the consequences of this terrible fate?
Why can't we just live our lives and show to the world how much we love each other?

Waking up is very hard for me especially when I know that I have to
deal with the cruel world again. The ony thing i'm holding on  is the
sweet smile on your lips. It takes away the pain I feel.

The sad thing is, the society claims your smile as its own.
And sadly, i'm not part of the world you're living in. I'm just a simple
girl mesmerized by your smile, a simple girl who fell in love.

Destiny does play it smart. Now, we share the love. Never did it cross my mind that you'll fall in love with me. Now, I can feel that i'm loved. This is no longer a fantasy.

Now, we are one. In the middle of the rain, I waited for you. I waited for you to come. Then, you came. In the middle of the rain, we have defied the odds.

I go throughout my day
longing for some sleep
I look forward to seeing you again
After the moon rises
I eagerly get ready to sleep
Because
I will see you in my dreams

The dream time seems at a slower pace
As I go into my happy place
I once again see your smiling face
For a moment everything seems like it used to be
Because

I see you in my dreams.

I don't want new cool stuffs.
I want to spend time with you.
I want to walk with you.
I want to count the starts at night with you.
I want to watch the sunset with you.
I want to hold your hands in public.
I want you to be proud of me.
I just want you here.
This love is true,
you must know that.
All I want is you.
Only you, *bae.

I always knew that love would come find me someday
but never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
you caught me off guard and took me by surprise
but you simply captivated me.
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.
For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
that precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God made everything beautiful, precious and new
just as beautiful and precious as the day will be, when I look into your eyes and say, "I Love You"