felt like you left me no choice,
but to let go
even if I wanted to hold on,
I felt too weak.
your indecisiveness,
your doubts,
your fears,
clouded my mind
and I felt suffocated.
and I know
I have to take care of myself
and I just can't
let it all burn
so I'll try my best
to stay away
to let us both heal.
tomorrow is unsure
but maybe someday
we'll both find our safe place.
after all,
I still wish you the best.

that night,
cold wind
and miserable
breeze,
accompany him
his head
full of
endless thoughts
and what if's.

under the moonlit sky,
he stood
as I heard
his silent cries
and
felt his fears.

I became an
overthinker myself
just by worrying
about one.

Do I write again?
Or just keep it to myself?
'Til I bleed so much?

There is sadness
in everywhere I look
in everywhere I go
How long
Will it take?
For the sadness
To finally take me?

You crashed my spirit in your hands.
Crampled it like a sheet of paper.
You leave my soul with cracks.
I'm broken and you didn't bother.
You trampled on my feelings,
I get caught up in your maze of madness.
The wounds that you left stings,
Leaving me with no senses.
You left me in despair.
And I suffer alone.

I suffer from my own made up complexes.
Building walls not bridges,
Isolating myself from everyone and him.
It's not yet clear.
My mind is in chaos.
My head is messed up.
Is it just me?
Or him?
Or maybe us?

My father already knew it.
When he said,
"You're gonna be heartbroken again."

...

"Yes, I knew too."