I feel like the rope
In a long game of tug 'o' war
I'm tearing apart
I'm not as strong as I was
In the beginning
Two sides are pulling me
Back
And
Forth
And Neither side
Seems to be winning
Yet I'm the only one losing
I'm breaking
The more they pull at me
The further I'll stretch
But soon I will break.

Death has me in it's grasp
It's the ol' ball and chain
His bony fingers hold my ankle
I drag him along
He holds on
So close
So enraged
Waiting ever so paitiently
He knows I'm weak
And I'm on edge each day
he is my predator
And I his truest prey
He wants to feed on my soul
And even though I'm weak
Even though I sometimes lie awake
Asking for death to come and take me in my sleep
My heart urges me to live
Even though I'm not strong
Even though I don't want to live very long
I want life
Each day I fight my own fight
And though I do win
The battle never ends
And one day
Death will take me
One day
I will Lose.

I can't even sleep
Breathing is hard
I can't cry anymore
I've been mentally scarred
Sworn into secrets
I can't tell a soul
But my heart is in half
*Unholy and un-whole.

I fell for you
So weak to my knees
Butterflies
And the shakes
You left me breathless
Brought me joy
And made everything better
I love you
And you love me
But it never ends the fear
It never puts away my doubt
It doesn't **** my fear
That one day you'll leave me
That one day you'll break my heart.

How can this be
Your the boy who saved me
Yet now you lie
Say your rejection
Made me cry
But I never even made an offer
Never asked you to be mine
I just fell in love
Only hoped for
Friendship
Even when it
Never came
Yet you spread
*******
Like I'm nothing
You once took
Away tears
And brought me joy
Now your just
A silly boy
To high to
Function
To cruel
To be loved
even
By me.


Sorry.

Kiss me
Press me close
Hold me
Hold my hand
Kiss my cheek
Tell me
You love me
My chest
Bursts open
And I'm
Reliving
The past
Reliving
The good
I love you
It scares me
But its true
I hope this works
Hope it
Lasts
I hope
You won't go
Kiss me
And stop all my thoughts
Take me into your soul
And set me free.

How else
Am I to express
My fear
Anxiety
Terror
For
Here I lay
Falling in love
With you again
Here I lay
Imagining
Our marriage
Our child
Our future
How can I express
My fear
That we won't
Survive
That you'll leave me
That you don't want me
How can I explain
How scared I am
To think of my life without
You.

Roses are black,
Violets are black,
Because love is blind
And I want you back.

It burns when you look in my eyes,
It burns when you hold my hand.
It burns when you say my name,
But it burns even more when you don't.

It burns when you talk about her,
It burns when you say anything.
It even burns when you make me smile
But it burns even more when I cry.

It burns, it stings, it pains, it hurts
But I would burn 1,000,000 shoes walking on sunshine with you.