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Jun 2017 · 617
The Curse
Mey Jun 2017
The reason why I write
Is when I am hurt
At that moment
Or for a long time

The reason why I'm hurt
Is when I am left
By my friend
Or a lover of mine

And when I'm hurt
I can't help but write
A number of poems
And their name in acrostic

And when it's written
They disappear entirely
From my heart
From my life

This is the curse of my writing
I have written several about you
And now I'm afraid
That I might lose you
May 2017 · 1.0k
Not My Home
Mey May 2017
Just a few years back, I remember how I tried not to mingle
As I am being surrounded by new faces.
I prefer to wait for my colleagues from other sections
Than spending time with the unwanted people.

I've been clinging so much with the past
That I almost missed the beauty of the present.
So, I slowly adjusted as someone had lead the way
Finally, I have a home to stay.

But things happen for a reason
Like what my friend have written.
On how such a wind can change
The direction of the wings it takes.

I suddenly felt like an alien
From my very own planet.
An area that I used to call home
Is now conquered by people I don't even know
Apr 2017 · 505
Today
Mey Apr 2017
Today is a very special day
I don't know which words to say
But I hope that you are okay
Even if you just slept all day

I've been thinking a lot of things
Like crafting or buying gifts
But I failed to save up for these
Instead, I'm here writing this

I used to spend days writing our papers
Always saying, there's still time for later
But writing sweet poems such as this
It took me just minutes, I won't remiss

Today marks your young adult year
New doors will open, and the light is near
I hope you're having fun with your mates
Drinking and laughing like old time's sake
Jan 2017 · 274
4:51 AM
Mey Jan 2017
If only I can manipulate the time
Just like in the movies
I'll make the best choices
Lessen my mistakes
Knows which food is better
No more failed relationships
Ace my failed courses
Knows who to trust
Who to ignore
And what to believe


I would go back
Change everything that has to be changed
Replace sad memories with happy ones
And meet you at our favorite spots


But I wouldn't
Not because it is impossible
Nor I was a happy, satisfied kid
But because whatever happened in the past
Is what molded me for what I am today

What about the sad memories?
It is hard to forget
But it made me stronger, better
I may not be perfect
I don't have anything to be proud of

But this is me
And you'd have to accept
For who I am
Dec 2016 · 304
So good it hurts
Mey Dec 2016
I was broken
Shattered, wrecked
Torn into million pieces

I had tasted
The bitterness of love
The saltiness of blood

I had the worst
Encountering people
Walking out of my life

But it felt so good
Even when it hurts
But I am no *******

I have learned
Whom to trust
Whom to ignore

Beyond all those pain
Every step molds me
Into a better, stronger person
Part 1, maybe
Dec 2016 · 385
Defined by yourself
Mey Dec 2016
So I was wondering
How do people define
A perfect relationship

I thought
Maybe it was physically
But it changes
For a period of time

I thought
Maybe it was the wealth
That can buy everything
Wants, needs

I thought
Maybe it was the words
Smooth talker
*** kisser

I thought
Maybe it was the performance
In dates
At home
On bed

But as I go deeper
And deeper
I have thought
Of so many reason
To define
A perfect relationship

In the end
No one
Can really define
A perfect relationship

For it depends
On the happiness
Of that person
"Defined by yourself" clearly talks about a 'perfect relationship', but what's behind this poem is not just the so called 'perfect relationship'. Think about it.
Dec 2016 · 532
I don't know your name
Mey Dec 2016
For once I thought that I won't make the same mistake again
It seems that the world revolves just like the past I've burned
The friendship I've carefully handled and preserved
I even invested time and concern

I thought we were true friends
Separated when we were trying to surpass our own dreams
It seems that you're like the others
Leaving when you've find someone you've once dreamed

How could you turn your back from me?
Friendship should have no boundaries
Aren't we even allowed to laugh?
Or just talk all night about nonsense things

I asked you
When should I only be allowed to message you?
And then you just told me
The most bull**** response I've ever heard  of
I'm totally fine
Nov 2015 · 485
Where are you
Mey Nov 2015
I never thought that we’ll end up to this
Memories I’d kept and now thrown to abyss
Nights we’ve shared together for me it was so special
How could you replace me and still remain happy at all

I tried to sweep it off from my heavy shoulders
And thought of walking alone through the forest and wonders
‘Cause the identical body that was once beside me
Is now enjoying the sea with somebody not me

I still believe that scars will remain in us
But things would be different from the way it was
If ever you notice me and what’s new
Don’t mind me, I am tired of accepting back a friend I once knew
Nov 2015 · 3.4k
Love and Hate Collides
Mey Nov 2015
Remember the days
When we’re both drunk in love,
Hands touching each other’s heart,
And those passionate eyes.

Those were the days
When we still jump for joys,
Laughing, hearing no other noise.

But that was replaced
With words we never meant to say,
People trying to break
A love that was already at stake.

I tried to be strong
Because one has to believe
That everything is worth a song

Until then,
My hands slipped off of the rope,
A rope that once I thought was long,
Long enough for my hopes to hold.

I thought of you as the enemy
So I could easily forget all the wounds you’ve caused to me
Because it is easier to hate than nothing at all.

I though it will last forever,
The grudge I’m holding on for months.
But an angel was sent down
To guide and fix up our hearts’ frown.

I never thought how much you were affected
For I was blinded with my own fears and tears
Now my memories of us came back

As we accept each other again,
Nothing will be the same, ever again.
Questions were left unanswered
Because in love, actions will always be better than words.

Always remember
“A love that once existed,
Will never ever fade away.”
Sep 2015 · 980
I Love You
Mey Sep 2015
You are my light
That shines so bright even at night
My world you turned from black to white
I love you even if I lose my sight

If challenges would try to break us apart
I will fight, for I will never break your heart
Loyalty and faithfulness will guide our way
I love you no matter what they say

I cannot abandon you even if there is a million reason
I will always find a way, for my love has won
I do not have to count years, because it will never be enough
I will just treasure the memories that you and I have

But, darling, things may not be in our favor
Just like the failed relationships before
I vow to the gods and goddesses
That nothing can tear us apart
Our love is tied with vicious kisses
I love you from the bottom of my heart
Constructed for less than an hour (Phil Lit course)
(edited)
Jul 2015 · 605
When I'm gone
Mey Jul 2015
When I'm gone
Will you notice?
I bet you won't

When I'm gone
Will you search of me?
I bet you won't


When I'm gone
Will you even care?
I bet you won't

When I'm gone
Will you freak out?
I bet you won't

When I'm gone
Will you find out the reason why?
I bet you won't

When I'm gone
Will you miss me?
I bet you won't

When I'm gone**
Will I even stand a chance to pop on your mind?
I bet I won't
Jul 2015 · 3.9k
Dota 2
Mey Jul 2015
Days passed by so fast
Overt feelings of hate towards my past
To avoid sadness and fulfill my happy jar
Another day won't be spent to play the game

Thus, I feel so free
Wounds healed slowly and thoroughly
O**pening my heart when I am fixed
Reasons not to play Dota 2
Is you
Jul 2015 · 338
JK
Mey Jul 2015
JK
Just say you're sorry
And everything will be okay
Maybe it'll be different from the past
It'll surely be far from our past
Love has died before I had lose the hope in my hands

Karma, I know it's working by your side
Risking things for you was all I think about before
In any circumstances, you were always my primary priority
Son of a *****, you destroyed the best things in me
Trust of mine slowly fading away from every man generally
I** was tough enough to end things between you and me
And as each day passes by
Now I know you ain't the guy worthy of my sacrifice
You were my sunshine and rainbow before
But now you're just a thunder to my storms
Jul 2015 · 516
Agatha
Mey Jul 2015
At times you need someone
Go and talk to your love one
A** friend or someone more than as friend
That could help you just by staying at your side
Hugs you tight and listens to your rages
As every worries of yours dissolves into the air
Jul 2015 · 452
Jay
Mey Jul 2015
Jay
Just because I disagreed, it doesn't mean that it is the end.
A** day not hearing from you feels like years of not talking to you.
Yearning every minute for your presence.
Sorry :(
Jul 2015 · 432
Changes - Time
Mey Jul 2015
Before
I see morning as the beginning of the chapter. A symbol for another day of fulfilling dreams. Another day for your own hopes. Another day to go out and let the sun direct you to your light.

I see evening as the end of the story. The end of every beginning. The goodbye's to every hello's. A moment to sit and contemplate for the events happened during the day. A night to take a rest and build up yourself.


Today**
I see morning as another ******-up day. A day with nothing to do, nothing to learn. A day with no one to share a little bit of happiness clinging to my heart. A day hoping to the wrong things.

I see evening as an unending gloomy night. A house of darkness, pitch black surrounding, candles asking to be lit. Sadly, no matter how many candles you lit, it won't win against the power of darkness.
Jul 2015 · 866
Moya Luna
Mey Jul 2015
Best things in life is being with you
Rather than being alone
In the midst of the dark
Across the deep blue sea
Nothing compares when I’m with you

Precious smile I’ll never get tired to see
Always hoping it’ll never leave
Uncommon yet it shows veracity
Laden heavily by your own difficulty

Videos and music we’ve shared together
Inseparable moments that will last forever
Racing hearts but never exposed
Anxious of the possibilities ahead of our road
Youth, hindered us from the unspoken words of our own sentiments

Considering my thoughts
Raging for every reasons I have
In leaving you behind the walls we unconsciously built or
Staying beside you with the lump on my throat
Observing how you suddenly adapt to our new world
Shredding me into utmost invisible piece
Together-forever remained just a thought in the void
Over-thinking of the road ahead, no more
Messed-up mind glued to the shore
O**n my way to the paradise and mend a heart once broke
Keeping you for so long, suddenly, I ended up losing you all along.
Jul 2015 · 617
Photos
Mey Jul 2015
We’re like photos without filters, we don’t need filters to brighten up the mood. Just being with you is enough.
Jul 2015 · 5.1k
Please Stay
Mey Jul 2015
I just want to hug you and say thank you for everything we’ve shared and about to share.
‘Friends with benefits’ they say, I say 'Friends with lots of benefits’. For you are that friend where I can be myself. Staying up late, talking 'bout how others treated us shittily (if that word could just exist).
We may not have witnessed each other’s childhood, but just by sharing the present with you is enough to be a part of my past.
When you got my back, I got yours too. 'Cause I will always be here for you.

So PLEASE don’t go, STAY.
Jul 2015 · 1.1k
My Special Friend
Mey Jul 2015
You were there sending me songs that basically explains your mood. You were there linking me ****** videos though it made me laugh so hard. You were there giving me tons of vine that brought me into good mood. You were always there for me, now let me take away your sadness and make you feel happy too.

You were there to print me a hard copy of our modules ‘cause my printer is broken. You were there at my birthday when I celebrated it with my college friends even if you weren’t invited ‘cause we're not that close yet. You were there to eat ice cream with me whenever I crave one. You were always there for me, now let me do things for you too.

You were there when my relation**** isn’t working out. You were there when I have no one else to talk to. You were there to sing me a song and play the guitar even if you’re too shy to do it just because I requested you to. You were always there for me, now let me sing you a song and you can play the music along.

You were there giving me the games I wanted so badly, but I know I’ll have to pay for it later. You were there teaching me how to play certain games ‘cause I ***** up at the beginning. You were there watching my back and taking revenge to our opponents because I really am good at dying. You were always there for me, now let me be the one to watch your back and I will protect you.

You never left. I did for some time. I was separated from you. We’d lost our connection. But life brought us back together. From then, I never want to lose you again. I was blinded by your smiles that I wasn’t able to know that you were hurting. I got sensitive of our simple conversations because of your dull reactions. Maybe you got sick of my questions, but I care for you and I don’t want you to feel so alone. *You were always there for me, now let me be there for you too.

— The End —