sometimes i **** myself in my mind just a little just enough to see how everyone would be better without me just enough to isolate myself a while but it's not real and every day i regret that i'm still here
you say you care but i can't help doubting your honest lies
All of my feelings I hold in my heart But my heart has a hole And nothing will stay It will fill for a moment But then will depart My happiness drains fast away. Empty and numb This hollowness echoes Mocking with all that I lack I try and try but never can manage To take that happiness back
I'm not feeling safe Don't hate me My soul is dead Please love me My Eros was replaced by hate Please love me Everything was all about you So please don't be mistaken When you're reading this Just love me
They told me rain would rinse off my worries but I drowned in them instead.
I wrote this for one of my best friends. We were really close but had a ****** argument and spent about 3 months ignoring each other. One night we had to walk home on our own while it was pouring raining and we laughed and it felt like everything was good again. The morning, however, revealed a whole different truth. I felt like we would never be the same again.