I asked the bone colored moon
Why
He didn't know
And doesn't care
He's just a hunk of bone
Up in the sky
And me
I'm just a bag of bones
Down here
Looking up at the sky
Asking why
Waiting around to die.

r ~ 7/7/14

are origami paper
there are only so many folds
you can make
the rest must be left to silence
tapered existence taken
in stride
wan swan indigo eve seen and scene

Why oh why was I so blind
In a perfect world you'd be mine
You're the perfect boy
I'm not the perfect girl
If my hair were longer
And I was smarter
And I was thinner
I still woulnt compare
I'm sorry that I pull
And I can't sit still
Eating comforts me still
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not wanted
I know I'm not beautiful
I know I have bald patches
Scars and wounds
Acne and fat
But hair grows back
Skin can heal
I can change all of that
But I still wont be perfect
I'll sill think that even if I change who I am
At least I'd have a shot
Why oh why am I so dumb
Think I'm going crazy
I've fallen for a boy who doesn't even see me
He knows what he wants
Hes made it clear
But I still hope
And I pray that maybe I have a shot
I'm not what you need I've made that clear
I can't take care of myself
I forget
I mess up
I day dream too much
But I opened up to you and tried to prove I can change
Look where that got me
Lying in bed
Same skin
Same hair
Same look
Everything seems to have stayed the same
Why oh why am I so blind
I couldn't see the truth
I'm not your perfect girl
This isn't a perfect world
This will never work
I guess I'm just some crazy *****
And you're a stuck up ****

In what hidden pain
says he

*I'll never love again.

On that harbour town she was to wait for me
by the sea.

I would travel from the city
and at the jetty
she would be sharp at ten.

A few hours' bus ride
to be by her side
come sun or rain.

A girl from coastal sands
she had to take a ferry
from another island.

Boats came and went
I lost count
dreaming that heavenly moment.

With two hours and an empty jetty
I headed back for the city
mad with sadness
for her act of treason
never ever asking her the reason
why she couldn't be with me
by the sea.

That day I was to make a vow
she would be my wife.

That day I barred her for life.

out there are ones
who haven't lost faith
in you.

I saw you standing hands on hips
confident in your wholeness;
Female in what you witnessed.

You looked life in the eye
and life accepted the challenge;
Pulled you to its *****.

Knowing now strength of a lion
You need only cast a look;
And all walls tumble.