Days without you measure more to those with you,
The longer you are absent the more hurt there be,
So far from me I can barely reach you,
I read your words trying to believe them,
But they are meaningless,
There is no difference being with or without you,
They are the same.
I know that now.

Each night, thoughts of you catch fire in my mind
Each morning I am haunted by the dreams of you.
Days are more empty and dull without you
Do you miss me, like how much i miss you?
I call out to you but my words fall silent.
Can you hear my tears of hope?
How i wished for so many things with you.
That night is forever burnt in my mind of you, me and the air of the sea.
My heart wont allow me for this to be the end.
So will it?

Forlorn spirit be thy company
Upon a failing desire
Unfulfilled through times demise
A fading fire left in a blackening room
No kindling to restart the flame
Droplets fall from the ceiling like tears
What now do the sears see?
The stones speak, but we do not hear them
And yet the fire continues to burn in a foreshadowing place

Laid upon my bed,
Next to a cold imprint of you,
Your shape, outlayed in pillows,
No two hearts dance in the night,
Only a single heart beating is heard,
The cold air sets the skin to shiver,
The heat of desire absent,
A night so silent,
The clock echos and mocks,
Time should have you by my side,
But alas i lay empty.

I miss you,
If only i didnt,
Then my days wouldn't feel so empty
My heart want yours
Though i try not too
Memories of you consume my nights
They sting as the months rolls by
The wanting grows stronger
But i know it is time,
And i have to admit to myself what ive known for so long,
I have to say goodbye,
I have to stop hoping for a day that will never come,
I feel helpless
I should hate you but i cant
I will always miss you,
Im glad i took a chance,
Even though i knew i shouldn't have,
I will remember that night with you for the rest of life.
Goodbye my love.
Maybe the universe will brings us together again.

Rest easy my heart, it is not over and the new day has not yet dawned.
Think on what was achieved, rather than what has been lost.
Do not weap for what you are missing.
Think on what is to come, even if you have to wait an eternity.
You are allowed to mourn at your defeats.
But remember the speck of courage and strength that is left, it is your flint and tinder to light your flame once again.
So rest easy my heart.

The nights breeze flows through my window.
It kissess my skin as i lay upon my bed.
My thoughts recollect to the night of being blessed with Anam cara, a night mirroring this one.
I yearn for another night like that.
More so a life like that, for having an Anam cara is to be home.
And i so long to be home.

I'd a pluck a fair rose for my love
I'd a pluck a red rose blowin'
Love's in my heart, i'm tryin' so to prove
What your heart's knowin'

I'd a pluck a finger on a thorn
I'd a pluck a finger bleedin'
Red is my heart, wounded and forlorn
And your heart needin'

I'd a hold a finger to my tongue
I'd a hold a finger waitin'
My heart is sore, until it joins in song
With your heart matin'

I am restless of what is left. An empty shell that was once so full. Being drained over time, with its contents close to empty. It seems as though punishment over shadows, for something that was never caused.

But why, for any reason, am i being treated thus. There are no explanations to such actions, or there lack off.

Frailty in promises, which seem to multiply over time. Yet, i linger, not wanting to give up. Its it foolishness or bravery? What governs me so to my actions? What is to become of me?

I want to hold you tight tonight and not let you go,
Im afraid if i let you go, I'll miss you again,
I long for your arms to wrap around me,
Holding each other and forgetting the chaos around us as we kiss,
I miss that, but most of all i miss you.
But why do feel doom is approaching all the time.
Like it was the last time i got to hold you.

For once i wish i could just hold you and forget this world.
I want to look into your eyes and tell you everything.
I long to hear your heart as i lean on your chest.
But i cant, because i dont know where you are, or how to reach you.
Time told me to wait, but i cant, i need to get on with this life of mine.
So i ask, come find me, use all your efforts to be here with me.
Dont give up on me, even when you think i have.
Im not sure how long i can bare it without you.

Anxiety beckons upon my doubtful mind.
Prolonging these connections, strains the efforts made.
Thoughts flood over internally.
Questions continue to build corrupting my mind.
Sweeping away doubts is my ignorance of what i sense.
Another game i believe.
But yet i still hold on.
Though what do i hold on too?
Trapped inside, fighting my demons, I want to give up.
Its taking its toll on me.

I have lost my heart even before i could give it to anyone,
Lost behind these tears that fall
Faded in empty promises and hopes
Abused and pushed beyond its capabilities
And all it wanted was lustful peace
All that is left is a cold empty bed
And a phantom feeling of someone who i will never hold again.

Far from arms length, further in terms of time.
Restless nights multiply effortlessly.
Hope lingering past beyond points of doubt.
Chances abused, but an abundance equal to the piece's of my heart.
Determination upon a questionable creature.
But rather face this storm then regret it all.
I falter in pursuit, more so at night.

I yet dream of a night so beautiful,
One of which the stars burn brightly,
Where it is nature that towers over me,
With winds so calming it caresses the skin,
A night where doubts are diminished,
And hearts beat loud with wondering eyes upon the sky,
A night where the world is muted for a moment in time,
I yet dream of this.

Under the cold ambient night sky
My senses run wild
Having tasted it
I want more
I crave no others
Is this selfish?
To want this warmth flow over my skin
To have those arms around me each day
Do i delude myself, like i always do
Or do i let the fire burn in the winter snow?

Without words spoken i call out your name
In the darkness i see you clearly
And in the sun i am in your shadow
It is in my heart that speaks to you
It is my mind that sees you clearly
And it is happiness that i feel most with you.
But why its it so?
Why not another's embrace?
Why do they feel numb compared to you?
Why am i cold to others, but warm to you?
What is this i feel?
Why is it that i can never depart from you?
Why cant i be free from this?
What will become of my sanity?

I look up to the night sky with a heavy heart breathing.
It is my tears that keeps me up late at night.
Tis the stinging in my eyes that linger through the day
There be a wanting feeling beyond what i can imagine
How did it come to be?
Oh this fraility within
Why must it be?

I glanced at you from within the mist
Your face familiar
Within seconds and no hesitation you were in my arms and i was in yours.
I felt the warmth, the fulfilment and the love.
I was safe and not alone.
I wish it were real
Reality could never posses something i do not have.
But in dream i do.
How torturous are my dreams to show me thus.
Showing me something i cant have.
Showing someone i have never met.
But yet letting me feel the one thing i wait for.

Upon thine eyes i see thee
There be breath in thou lungs
Blood flows in thou veins
A beat from within thy chest
Hath thee waited under the great oak?
For thy hath waited under stars at night
Doth thee reach out?
Echoing calls of thy name in the wind
Thy tears yearn for thou warmth
But alas the cold air kisses thyself
The darkness awakens thy senses
For thy hath felt thee when lonely tears do shed

Eyes steadfast upon a black horizon
Unmoving body lays breathing
Pain at every breath
Silent screams echo internally
Weary mind
Lonely heart
A beating heart in a lifeless body
Stitches begin to unravel
Repeat of defeat upon my life
Even ghosts do not linger like me
A vain effort achieved
A pain forever unshakeable

My eyes burn
That salty liquid i do blame
Frailty from within
Longing feelings i do blame
Behind closed doors does it keep
Desire i do blame
Time creater of distance
Silence i do blame
Jealous thoughts of mind
Doubting i do blame
Happiness in the warmth of arms
Loneliness i do blame
A heart so full
Love i do blame

Trifling through prolonged memories of days since past.
What a sight it was, but oh what pain did it cause.
Cast eyes beyond the horizon, to a future unknown.
How the lingering sting of the past still weights heavy on ones beating heart.
What future will there be beyond the horizon once the tempest is at play.
What now do the eye see beyond such a storm.

O time!
The cost I have lost to thee
Why hath thou broken me?
Once so close
Now so far
A bond no longer
A friendship altered
An acquaintance acquired
An unwanted shift
Forever a slave to the changing winds

Thy repeated endless cycle
Of dawn the new start
And of dark the end of old
But ever the same despair
On a continuous motion of light and dark
The sense of being nothing more than a rag
Torn and tattered
Oh will there be a day!
To not be used for
To clean the filth of others
Or belittled to feed others egos
alas!
No!
Thy cycle shall reign once again
And time wont mend the wounds
That of a torn rag