I remember you,
when the darkness comes.
The prettiest, blackest,
most bottomless eyes
I’ve ever seen.
The shy smile that tugged
at your lips,
and the tender kiss that followed
haunt me like ghosts that laugh
like breaking glass
while I sleep.
You closed your eyes when
I kissed your forehead.
Before I let myself say the words,
that was how I told you
I loved you.

When the darkness comes,
my hands still feel the warm
curves of your body,
your soft dark hair against
my neck,
and your head nestled against my shoulder.
The fire inside dimmed,
and in your arms a calm
took its place.
You squeezed tighter as I held you,
and I loved you more every time.

The words did not come easily,
but truly,
and when I whisper them to
all these empty places,
they echo like rain on the rooftops.
In the dark, I swear to you,
and pray for day.

Your smile was never easy to find,
you hide it well.
I never minded,
because I’ve been told the same.
And because I knew
that when I found it
I had earned the light in your eyes,
and the music of your laugh.
I was special then.
And so were we.

But lies burn more deeply
than the deepest love.
I was always yours.
You were never mine.

I left the day I knew
you would never stay.
I wanted to ask you to come with me.
I wanted you to ask me to take you.
The silent sadness in your eyes
and the weakness in your embrace
told me I was already gone.
I held you tighter that last night,
then watched you walk away.
You never looked back,
and that was when I finally
let myself cry.

The days are quiet now.
Trains pass by, and
you’re never on them.
The sun shines on,
and everyone here goes on
as if nothing ever happened.
They don’t know what I’ve lost.
I die in silence.

When I saw you last,
you were in his arms.
Your laugh made me smile,
even as I fought back the tears.
I watched him kiss you,
and saw the light in your eyes,
the ease of your smile.
I saw you in love.
And when your gaze
flickered to me,
I saw a stranger.

And I wonder now,
when the darkness comes,
when you looked into my eyes,
who did you see?

If I am the Night, and you are the Sea
Some things will blur a’twixt you and me
We are deep and vast and very full of darkness
We cycle through holding our light on the surface
Perhaps we were made for just such a purpose

And eventually my night will turn into day
But some part of you sees my sky anyway
You hold the reflection of my stars so near
I smile and sigh into waters so clear
Your Moon may be gone, but I am still here

I've seen your waves, and caused your tides
And on a good night, I can see deeper inside
I've witnessed your storms and hurricanes
I've watched howling winds and driving rains
Churn up both treasures and long lost remains

And through all of that I've just held you close
Enveloping you more with the stronger it grows
And when it has passed, and stars come back out
I want you to know that you need never doubt
In my heart, on my mind, we’re what I think about

I've been forced to look on as you willingly drown
And I've wanted to cry as you sunk all the way down
But I've also marveled at our mirrored expanse
At how you craft words into the spark of romance
How great would we be if just given the chance?

I know you can see me, past all my bright lights
Watched comets and planets and things that ignite
You know there is darkness between every star
And how collisions, explosions, have left me with scars
But all that we've shared shows just what we are

I've told you how black holes have tried to consume
And how constellations have reared up out of the gloom
You've been there when clouds have covered my skies
And seen my colors change each time the sun has to rise
You see so much more than anyone with just mortal eyes

By now you should know, my solar flares are for you
I’d like to think I have sway over the tides you feel too
Things like ours are nice when they’re not hard at all
So realize my feelings for you are anything but small
I like that you’re there to catch my stars when they fall

And maybe you’re right when you said we won’t last
Perhaps we’re both just reliving mistakes of the past
But maybe I adore you so much that I want to keep this
Maybe I don’t want to see you turn into something I miss
This thing isn't one I’d end with just a goodbye kiss

I know you’re waiting for words, I’m not sure I have them
While I’m looking for the right ones, here, have a poem
This isn't a summation, it’s more like a rough start
Of the Night and the Sea, the deep and the dark
If anyone has ever, it’s you whose captured my heart

I have the muse
I have the words
I have the need
I have the force
yet when I try, I come up dry
and end up, for the worse

Want to be together but alone
Though your heart is made of stone
Couldn't share with you my thoughts
You were never that sure about
Your feelings , always so insecure
Used me like a stepping stone
So let's pretend and remind ourselves
That our need for love has grown
I kept saying " If you go, please let me know "
I want to move on but you keep holding on , dragging me along
It's just a make believe , why can't you see
You don't love me.