it's hard to believe
that anyone could fall in love with me
that i could be the reason for someone's smile
how could i make someones heart pound?
or do i keep them up at night
or am i always on their mind?
maybe there's poetry about me somewhere
or a love song played on repeat
maybe i'm the person of someone else's dreams
if all of that is true,
could that somebody be you?

25 more days in captivation
44 until i'm actually free
graduation can't come any sooner
I want to know if  you're waiting for me

when I give you the letter
liberation
no longer ****** by curiosity

when i give you the letter will things change?
or will they be how they've always been?

Sometimes I like to think
about the future
i can't keep my thoughts succinct
next year
Will I be with you?
i want you near
Will you kiss me
as we leave each morning
will you love me
even as I'm snoring

would you take me to meet your mom?
I would let you meet my dad
would we snuggle next to the fire place
read and drink hot cocoa?  
Or will I be lacking your embrace

a future without you in it
is really hard to picture
maybe I shouldn't think like that
because what if your opinion differs
because what if you leave?
I don;t want to be strangers again

I don't want to forget
the feeling of your arms wrapped around me
I don't want to forget
your laugh,
or the things you say, or do
that make me laugh
I don't want to forget
how you frustrate me sometimes
or the color of your eyes
But if that happens
I guess I'll survive
But I'm stuck on you now
I'm so, so, so stuck

forty seven days
until i'm free
no more lockers
no more hallways
no more homework
no more classrooms
freedom
on my own
sort of
i get to figure life out
early
who will be there to
catch me when
i trip
and fall flat
on my face
will you be there
to hold my hand
and lead me to new places?

with facebook
comes lack of
privacy
your whole life
is out there
for the whole world to see.

Some days I'm on top of the world
and other days
I'm afraid of heights.

scared
things seem like
they're going by
too
fast
everything is
a blur
what do i do
next
my mind isn't keeping
up with the rest of
the world
it's


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still
.
.
.
l  o  a  d  i  n  g


p      r      o      c       e      s      s      i      n     g

sometimes

it
comes to

a

halt.
stops l  o  a  d  i  n  g
and
i'm [stuck]
in one place
while everyone around me
is moving fast paced
i take things
s
l
o
w
i like to
procrastinate
i am not quick to
strike
what if they move on





without me?