efni - Hello Poetry

efni May 2022

i'm not sure anymore
if i am falling apart
or falling in place

i'm just tired of being in pieces.

05.31.22

i've been 'under construction' for a long time now

efni May 2022

my days are spent
trying to forget you

and your nightly echoes
lull me crying to sleep

where i'm haunted by
who i thought you were

until i wake up...and the cycle repeats

05.31.22

please let me go

efni May 2022

missing

i sit waiting for reality to hit me
but i think i've run so far and so fast
that at some point it lost me or i lost it

and neither of us care to search...

29.05.22

i don't think i can snap out of it this time.

efni May 2022

ready set go

the clock has
its numbers and

i have all these
miserable checkboxes

i can never seem to
tick them quite as quickly

05.28.22

time keeps getting shorter and i'd like to see my to-do list follow suit but that doesn't seem to be happening any time soon.

efni May 2022

losing myself

pieces of me are falling away
both apart and into place

i've made peace with many
goodbyes but just this once

will you stay in my greedy grasp?

05.26.22

i'm going to try to write a poem a day
no matter how long or short
whether it's brilliant or scrappy
i've lost so much already...
i will not lose this. i cant.

efni May 2022

deafening silence

my heart is heavy but not with pain

with prescription pills
meant to sedate my sadness

they didn't tell me it would
******* my creativity too

05.24.22

"there's so much i want to say, but i don't know where to start"

efni Mar 2022

they mourn my life

i am an
unanswered
prayer.

03.27.22

every day i break their hearts because i am the reason their prayers are never answered. i am the prayer never answered. i will never be what they want, a christian warrior, and i hate myself. sometimes, i wish they would hate me too.