audrey: Poems

audrey Aug 2017

So often turning water to wine is just being human
That is whats so miraculous about being mundane
Cause in a way we are all so wonderful
Yet so amazingly mundane
And being able to create life is whats so amazing about being human
Because if weren't able to do that we'd be devoid of something special

End

audrey Feb 2018

End

You have consumed every inch of me
My every waking moment is filled with the thought of you and what we could have been
Pictures of the past run across my mind
I cant be alone anymore the silence is too deafening too painful
My nights are filled with empty touches and promises of a tomorrow we will never have
Dreams of you and me touching
But the you slip away when we're about to collide
And I wake up with the imprints of your hands on my body and heat of your love still on my skin
Reality sets in and all the pain comes rushing back and it starts all over again

Forever and Always

audrey May 2017

Forever and Always

Forever is what everyone says right?
We all dream about it too
So of course we want to believe forever is real
We want to believe that when someone says
Ill love you forever and always
or
I'm not going anywhere I'm stuck with you forever
You think that they mean what they say
But what if they didn't
What if they were lying
Forever and Always
That's what they say....Right?

Haunting Me...

audrey Jun 2017

Haunting Me...

I've tried to wash away these feelings
But they just wont leave me behind
They just keep on haunting me
And maybe i should just dive in deep
But i know i cant hold my breath
Cause i know you aren't looking at
Cause you aren't looking for me
I know i'm searching for something i cant see
Maybe i should stop
But i wont stop
And i cant
Even thought your so cold
But that's okay because i am too

Maybe I'm not okay

audrey May 2017

Maybe I'm not okay

My heart, my heart
Why do you feel this way
Oh why, why
This Inconceivable pain
That consumes me
And… I don't know why
No… maybe I do know
I just, I just can't admit it
Whatever it is…..
Maybe I’m in pain cause you
Don't know how I feel and maybe
You never will but am I okay with that
I don't know if I am… okay that is
And maybe I never will be and
Maybe you will never know
How I feel...

no words

audrey Feb 2018

no words

i turned around to look at you one last time but all i saw was your back. it broke me. i fell. i broke down. you left with my heart and all those beautiful words you gave me. you took it all whit you when you said goodbye my love. i was stuck. i couldn't move. i couldn't say anything. i couldn't speak. i could only bring my self to say i love you when all you could say was goodbye.

i broke you but you ruined me.

Repeat

audrey Mar 2018

Repeat

You have consumed every inch of me
My every waking moment is filled with thoughts of you
Pictures of the past run across my mind
I cant be alone anymore, the silence is too deafening, too painful
My nights are filled with dreams of you touching me, loving me
Those are the sad nights filled with empty promises of a tomorrow we will never have
The nights where we come so close to colliding are worst but before we meet you slip away as I start to wake up and it starts all over again

You'll Never see

audrey Jun 2017

You'll Never see

You touch me and I blush because we are something you cant see
And I try not to let it show but you change me.And I try to refrain but your stuck in my brain. And I know deep down that you wont pick me.
But that's okay cause I know you that you don't mean to
But you destroy me...
And seeing you with her breaks me to pieces. But you'll never know cause I'll never tell you
And when your broken I'm always there. And I'll go red in my cheeks cause I know we're something that I shouldn't see.
But sometimes you give me this look and it has me questioning everything again.
And then I see you with her and I realize that we're something that you'll never see.

— The End —