Hello again, it’s been awhile since we have talked. I hate that you always want to do this at four in the morning. I never know how to explain to people why I was up so late, mainly because I hate explaining our complicated relationship. I know you’re worried, but I need to go to sleep. I know you want to stay up until we see the sun, but I have important things I need to do in the day time. You have pushed me around for too long, you controlled my life and my entire thought process for too much of my life, and I have worked so hard to push you away yet I always let you in when I feel you knocking. You loom around for too long after I let you in. Like this dark cloud I can’t shake for a couple weeks. It affects the people around me too, I can see you trying to **** them into your grasp. I don’t understand you; you’re this monster in the back of my head, creeping around everywhere I go. I don’t want to do this anymore, I’m tired, it’s late, please just let me sleep.
-k.p.
1.25.16

The bride and groom prepared their own vows:

Charlotte Ann, the day we met I had lost everything, my family, my home, then you came walking into my life, a bright light, you taught me to breathe again you taught me that I didn't have to fight alone. That day was three years ago and to this day you've stayed by my side, you've challenged me when I thought about giving up you gave me hope. I promise to stay by your side and challenge you and love you for as long as there is breath is these lungs.

Four years later:

Abbigal and Michael stop running you're going to knock someone down. Charlotte said to the kids as we sat in the small hospital room waiting for the bad new we knew was coming.

Cancer, I had stage four cancer: terminal

I looked into Charlottes emerald green eyes I saw that they mirrored mine: heartbreak, terror.

Cancer doesn't care if you have a family, children, cancer is like a drive by shooting attacking quickly before anyone has a chance to do or say anything. Cancer doesn't show on the outside and there is no way to stop the pain it causes.