How long ago has it been?
For years you were my only friend
Though many thought it to be sin
I knew it was us until the bitter end

You gave me pain
You gave me pleasure
You left a blood stain,
And that was my buried treasure

Carve in deeper why don't you
Hit me until it becomes a drug
I love the sudden rush don't you?
Keep going for my grave has been dug

STOP!

I no longer need you
I no longer want this
You promised no one would see
All the pain you caused me
It's always been a hit and miss
So go sit in your anger and stew

My body is not a canvas for,
You to paint in red
Blade; I don't need you anymore
Now please get out of my head

I'm worth it
I'm perfect,
In my own way
Away from me you will stay

I was once a cutter
I am now a fighter
I was once in the gutter
I am now a few secrets lighter

I was once a cutter,
And you were my evil friend.

go and get a life hypocrite boy.
you told me don't cry.  told me don't hurt yourself.
make a girl fall in love, let her settle in your life,
then turn against her without warning.
hows the drink taste now a days?
is it still satisfying as you drown your liver,
and chard your lungs or has it gone bitter?
as I walk with rage in my heart I ask of you
to give me a call when your clean and sober.
quit trying to dig yourself a slow six feet under.
fact is I love you too much to sit and wait.
so please don't expect me to watch you,
willingly **** yourself, i beg of you.

sick of your stereotyped way
no longer do I want to be yours
don't ask why, but we both know I'll be okay
and the deep opposite feelings that sit in our cores.

probably won't ever leave us
still, I've wasted away 15 years of me
and I don't plan on wasting more, I don't want to make a fuss
I just need to go, daddy's little girl is not what I want to be.

I don't think I'll ever be sorry
as your scaring runs deep, more than you'll ever know
it's just something we all have to live with, end of story
just let your little "angel" fly freely and let her go.

I walk this road all alone
independent, I don't want help
all I am is lost and accident prone
and finally I will give in and yelp.

out for help, out for you
I know that's where I want to be found
no longer trapped, out searching for you
I can safely say my feet are happily on the ground.

I've located, who I am, and who I strive to be
all I wish now is for you to stand proud beside me.

you know I'm  just a child
I'm really not that innocent or mild

I'll melt within your gentle hands
turn me into art, place me where love stands.

but i can do better
I've wrote many of one letter.

just to explain who i want to be
who i want you to truly see

maturity, I've got twice as much as yourself
i know the look and image of myself

mold me, fold me anyway you like
you know you're in control as if a lightning strike

you know if you ask I'd give you anything
please just  give this thing

a real chance?

you see me every day
wearing a mask
to blind your eyes in every way
i only asked for one little task

and now i fear to sob
in front of you
because you'd do the job
i just wish you would fall this hard too

not for that cow
who's a complete ****
but me, the girl next door  right now
cause all i ever feel, is my upside down gut.

you told me i could trust you
i never thought that, that would be a lie too.