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17.2k · Jan 2015
Trapped
Alicia Jan 2015
Why do I feel so trapped,
when I'm so free?

Free to do what I choose with my life,
But trapped, chained to the expectations of society.

A.C
6.9k · Feb 2015
Time
Alicia Feb 2015
Death is something not to be feared,
for death is inevitable.

If you want to fear something,
fear time.
Time is running out.

A.C
3.0k · Jan 2015
Don't wait
Alicia Jan 2015
Why do you wait?
And what are you waiting for?

Life isn't handed to us on a silver platter,
we work and work so tirelessly if we truly want something.

So stop waiting for a golden chance,
Do whatever you can now.
Not tomorrow, or the day after.
Stop waiting.

A.C
2.6k · Jan 2015
Future
Alicia Jan 2015
I'll admit,
I'm scared.

I'm scared that no matter how many sunsets behold me,
No matter how many sunrises greet me,
Or how many people fall to their feet for me.

How many chances stand before me,
or how many lovers leave me.

I'll still be in the same place I am now.
Afraid
and
Scared.

A.C
2.3k · Jan 2015
Pictures.
Alicia Jan 2015
Looking back at old pictures.
Because who wouldn't want to go back to being the once so strong and confident being they used to be.
Because I know I would.

A.C
1.3k · Jan 2015
Pity
Alicia Jan 2015
Don't your words
Leave a stagnant taste of pity,
lingering on your tongue?

Don't your actions,
exceed your shallow words?

When was the last time,
you actually kept your thoughts to yourself?

To me,
you seem to be the type of person
who hisses and scowls at a sunrise,
only because it's too beautiful.

A.C
1.0k · Jan 2015
Lonely
Alicia Jan 2015
I don't know what you'd consider lonely.

But for me,
Lonely was sitting in the bathroom toilets, by myself at school.
Lonely was when I sat alone on a full school bus, even though there was an empty seat beside me.
Lonely was sitting alone in my room, staring into space, not caring whether the stars took me away.

But it got better,
I found people who searched for me in the school toilets,
Who sat next to me on an empty bus,
When I never sat alone, hoping the stars would take me, as they'd be there on the other end of the line,
waiting there for me, to tell me it was all okay.

Everything gets better,
and I've never, ever looked back.


A.C
924 · Aug 2015
Pain
Alicia Aug 2015
I'm not the type to miss people when I leave,
Or think about them when I'm gone.

But I met you.

And suddenly,
I'm starting to think that I might just miss you when I leave.

And it sticks like a thorn in my side,
To know that I too, can feel such sorrow.

A.C
858 · Jan 2015
Walls.
Alicia Jan 2015
I live in fear that one day
Someone will come.

They may be the best thing to ever happen to me
or not.

They will tear down the walls
I have so intricately hid behind

And leave me to wonder how I will ever
Repair my once so strong fortress.
A.C
846 · Mar 2015
I've Waited.
Alicia Mar 2015
I count the days,
months,
years,
That I've loved you.

I then count the days,
months,
years,
that you've never known,
known the infinite affection built up inside me,
waiting.
For you to realise;
just how much I love you

A.C
800 · Jan 2015
Tree Climber
Alicia Jan 2015
You could be the best tree climber in the world.
But sometimes, even the best need help getting back down.
A.C
718 · Jan 2015
Strange Magic
Alicia Jan 2015
Why is it that when I finally feel like I'm free from you,
Memories of us come back to haunt me,
bringing me right back to square one.
Such, such strange magic.

A.C
645 · Jan 2015
?
Alicia Jan 2015
?
"Can I ask you something?"
Is either the best or the worst question imaginable.
It can either make you or break you,
And unfortunately,
That's the harsh reality to everything.
It either makes you,
Or breaks you.
A.C
517 · Jan 2015
How.
Alicia Jan 2015
It doesn't make sense.
I can't make sense of it all.

When I looked at you, I used to see everything,
as if the world lived in your piercing blue eyes.

Now, all I see is how many daunting seasons have passed,
countless beyond compare to the amount that have in reality.

I can't explain it,
I can't explain how it makes me feel.

A.C
479 · Sep 2015
I'm bitter for you.
Alicia Sep 2015
I was naive ;
you knew that yet you took advantage of me. 

You promised me sweet whispers but gave me bitter sneers.
You took my first everything but left me without answers.
You filled me with hope;
And left me with despair.  

A.C
467 · May 2015
Goodbye
Alicia May 2015
Yesterday, I lived life like a normal day
Yesterday, I knew what was coming tomorrow.

Today, I said my final goodbye.
Today, I became a different person.

Tomorrow, I'll carry on
Tomorrow, I'll be a better person.

Tomorrow, I'll love you just as much as I did.
Today and Yesterday,
and forever into the future.

A.C
435 · Nov 2016
Never Sure
Alicia Nov 2016
My love for you grows:
never wavered
never doubtful.
It grows with an energy so tiring,
that even sometimes,
my love you for is

never sure.

AC
413 · Feb 2015
Truth
Alicia Feb 2015
If only you saw the countless words I've wrote.
Or the many nights I haven't slept.
Maybe even the times my mind has been filled with only you,
and I'm sat here, typing away,
to the ticking of my clock,
which seems to slow down time as my mind morphs an image of you.
I can't help it.
Maybe I loved you,
Maybe I still do.

A.C
319 · Jan 2015
It's Overrated.
Alicia Jan 2015
For some,
Love means everything.
It's like that because some people thirst for that attention,
be it good or bad or whatever consequences they face.

But not me.

For me, love is looking at something that makes me feel at home.
Be it a sunset or a sunrise,
Or the morning frost on the towering trees.

For me, love is indulging oneself in doing what they love,
What makes them feel at home with themselves.

Love for me is indescribable,
On a never ending spectrum.

And that's okay.

A.C
278 · Jan 2015
Eternal.
Alicia Jan 2015
You, who remain forever eternal in my heart.
You, who never turned away.
You, who was there for me when I needed someone the most.
Only you could ever fit the missing jigsaw puzzle to my sorrows,
and magically fix them.

But now you're gone,
and there isn't a day goes by where I don't think of you.
Not a day where I don't think of you and feel all my entrapped emotions escape from within.

When you're so high, way up in the clouds,
I can't talk to you.
I miss you.

A.C
257 · Dec 2017
New Beginnings
Alicia Dec 2017
Your love is a burning desire
In which I yearn for
It betters me,
And with every step I learn

To love more than I ever have
It's never a gamble
With you I'm in euphoria
You keep me humble.

I finally see the silver linings
The solemn, grey clouds become white,
With you, the past becomes concrete
To never be relived.

I'm finally content
This covenant never to be broken
The promise between us
Is forever eternal.

A.C
215 · Aug 2015
Trouble
Alicia Aug 2015
I've become so full of emotions,
I don't think I can remember how to turn them off anymore.

A.C
138 · Dec 2017
The Parade.
Alicia Dec 2017
Curses come home to roost.
Lies are never left buried

Share with me your whiskey dreams
destroy your artificial walls,
Take off your masks,

The parade is over.

A.C.
136 · Oct 2018
Remedy
Alicia Oct 2018
You arrived. I was soaking wet, wrapped in my white towel; straight out the shower.
I let you in. Greeted with a phone call, nothing more.
You were arguing, brash words and scornful sneers filled my home.
Was it my fault?
‘Hi.’ Nothing more, nothing less.
I gave you a kiss, hoping it would be the remedy for your sorrows.

You told me what went wrong, I tried to understand.
My words, like arms engulfing you under my shelter, trying to keep you safe.
I want to protect you, never hurt you.
I listened and listened, I understood.

You didn’t want to let me in,
This fortress, you have built so high,
Not daring to let anyone inside.
I tried to penetrate, you built it higher.

You left. I was still wet, wrapped in my white towel; not long out of the shower.
I let you out, faced with the nape of your neck, nothing more.
We were arguing, no words or sneers filled my home any longer.
It wasn’t my fault.
‘Goodbye, I love you.’ Nothing more, nothing less.
I shut the door, I wasn’t the remedy for your sorrows.

A.C.
56 · Oct 2019
Little Girl
Alicia Oct 2019
Wilted leaves rotting,
A young girl consumed by despair.

The shallow water making its last journey to the sea,
The sun setting over the last valley.

Wipe your tears little girl.
Don't you know the water will flow again
and the sun will rise above your innocent soul once more.

Dry your eyes little girl,
you are nature.
The leaves and flowers will blossom again
Tomorrow is forever a new day.


A.C.

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