N e v a

N e v a Feb 2015

Life never had sweet happy endings They was bittersweet such as your poisonous lips Whenever we kissed it soothes, calms my nerves. A drug to never be played with; you leave me high craving your love Your touch is an everlasting. sin leaving me with temptation to let you in.

Was I foolish to run back to you or am I right to never be your fool again? When there’s no other place to run to, I find you here at a stand still. My heart beats heavily for you ever since we separated. These tears cried out in the utmost sorrow as you left Your absence had left me in a mess, the blow plummeted me into fragments of my old self coming anew.

These pieces was razor sharp and cracked to the sensitive touch. It did take awhile to fix the together and start brand new But all I see now is you. They call me foolish for believing in you but who else shall I go to?

Everyone have someone they desire and mine happen to be you

. I wanted to love you again for better or worse no matter what anyone says Gossip is rather toxic; anyone can be burned when it splashed their way.

Don’t leave me behind. The memories of us is resurfacing in my eyes again.

The innocent joys, our gracious laughs and the comfort your hand relieved the pain in my own. Would you destroy all we had together? I could not stay away…
not at all. I was never one to leave this alone. I have to see you for one last time. Catch me before I fall. I am foolish for you

#love #heartbreak #sad #heartbroken

N e v a Feb 2015

Fading away

As the sun sets, with it's fading glow; I cannot stop but think, Is this all there is to the life of a man; Or is it the dark that is truly the beginning. A dim flickering light Blinks it's last goodbye Not going out with a flash But instead slowly fading away Just like my passion For everything.

I once enjoyed And endless dark Covering my only love The art has disappeared And my heart has gone No passion flows No interest grows A sickening depression Takes away the passion Fading like a light.

I fear That it is gone forever not even writing could pull this heart together again This emptiness won´t allow me to see past this clouds of fear, of anger Faith in hope is all lost, not belonging, there’s only rust.

Tired, vanishing within these walls hides the growing question of solitude Rename, reappear, reset, another heart and it shall bring no regrets I can feel it in my bones, this rusting heart that simply no longer grows It’s stuck, poisoned in memories of what could have been, what he had seen Fear to feel that for one fight, he faced his fragile fabric of fantasies fading from himself.

Madness muttering mostly merciful and painful memoirs of that month he met the perfect other for his match. Trying to feel the true touch of her toxic naked body trying to tempt him, talking to him through the timeless tales in her skin. Though not even writing could pull this heart together again.

N e v a Feb 2015

Heartbroken

You broke my heart

Leaving it to fall to the ground and shattering from impact.

You destroyed me, broke me.

And you didn't even care.

But that's okay, I'll fix the pieces and put them back together.

I'm a fool,

For even falling for you.

#heartbreak #sad #heartbroke

N e v a Feb 2015

Stars

Stars fall from my eyes

Feeling like an empty void

Where existence is none

Stars slowly fading away

Into the opaque night.

I wonder why..

Do I feel so alone?

Actually, this is kinda random and came from the top of my head.

#alone #stars

N e v a Nov 2013

What is real and what is fiction.

A mouth can tell lies.
An eye can tell the truth.

N e v a Oct 2013

Behind these walls

They watch the world,
with open eyes.
They haunt the world,
with an open mind.
They see you move,
as you live in this world.

But behind these walls,
lies a deep dark universe.
One where the light can't shine through.
A world where they lurk,
they play and hide.
Behind these walls, there's a world inside.

If you dare to look,
or even hear.
Go ahead face your fear.
You'll join this world,
one cruel day.
So sad it'll be...
But they can't hear you say...!

Behind these walls,
lies a deep dark universe!
One where the light can't shine through!
A world where they lurk,
and play and hide...
Behind these walls, there's a world inside.......

N e v a Oct 2013

Shattered Pieces

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on
the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and
sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart
that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of
my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.

All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.

Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the
world, with a love for you that gives a glow -
but now, my darling, you made a choice.

My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up -
I need to learn to let go.