I want to ride my bike there but I don't have one
and it's too cold to walk to the bridge
i would wait until spring but that's too far away
   what if no one shows up,what if no one cares
what if they're only shocked or say it's what they expected
what if someone thinks it's their fault?But it's no ones,not even yours. in a sense,it's the memories I suppose. I try to suppress  them but I can't and I'm awfully sorry,I really am.

I don't remember exactly what you look like or what your voice sounds like,and whether you're still nice I don't know- have you been drinking a lot? I hope not. I miss you a lot, I think about you a lot. I hope you're okay,everybody's got secrets, I wonder how deep yours are.

September 7th,2010 you don't remember but it's when you first saw me and you would look at me all the time and I would always wonder why
well **** it's January 1st 2014 and I've been writing some songs and stories and poems about you, I hope you don't mind
I asked you out a few years ago and you said no and then we talked after that but you don't remember that probably, well you said we could be friends and then you ******* blocked me
but a few months after that you liked my selfie and it made me feel pretty but then I deleted it for some unknown reason and it doesn't mean anything but I thought I should remind you
anyway back it up to 7th grade I really messed this whole thing up for us , I'm sorry. really thought we had something. thought the universe or god was trying to tell me something but I was making it up in my head
3 1/2 years strong, **** why is it always 3? crushes are supposed to
be gone in weeks, am I wrong?  
3 1/2 years later - have you forgotten me?